Re-United

Its euphoric

In a way

The pain is still there

But with the light

It fades

Theres a mess over all the sheets

I hope it wont stain

The blood leaves so eagerly

Just like its vessel

It hates to be contained

I'm afraid

But this is what I wanted

Or is it?

What if death truly is the limit?

What if...?

No

I cant think like this

This was my only wish

The only chance I have of ever seeing dad again

 

I have to finish this letter before I fade into black

I can hear the angels calling me

I've got to force myself back

Mom

I love you

I'm sorry I wasn't there when you were stuck in the struggle

I was struggling to address my feelings

Depression had in me in a muzzle

As I fought for control

Drugs joined the scuffle

One line for the job I lost

One joint for the pain that cause

One sip to call dad

Two lines to make the racing thoughts pause

Two joints to stop me feeling sad when i think about dad

Another bottle gets smashed

Third line to help me understand the pain

Another joint to make me forget again

They see me as an addict

But my hearts sick and it needs its medicine

Doors to my heart closed

Emotions screaming LET ME IN

Cold

Too cold

But must finish

Lifes a journey and the wheels keep on turning

If heavens full of angels

Are they praying for those who're burning?

Theres a cry for help in that somewhere

Loneliness, sadness a bit of yearning

I've been through so much hell

I deserve to be heaven

Been intimate with suicidal thoughts since I was eleven

Its getting dark

Dad I'm afraid of the dark

And I'm on my way to heaven

Please switch the lights on

DarkTower

Reviews

[Aehr]

The pain is so raw in this one. The ghostly sense of acceptance is unsettling but brings so much to this poem.

Third line to help me understand the pain
Another joint to make me forget again

These lines shook me. Hope all is well.