All That I Love

Soul Release

Stay here with me

and just

Hold me please

I'm shy and alone

Retreating 

further in

to my soul

because only in there

do I feel warm

I have finally stumbled

down a hole

From which there is no coming up

And all that  I love

Is laying beneath me

Forming sharpened spikes

Eagerly waiting to catch me

Its 8 am

My visions foggy

I can barely walk straight

Let alone get my key in the gate

The bottle falls out of my hand

and smashes on the floor

I fall on all fours

And desperately lap it up

My liquor

is all that I have

Because on the inside

I feel ugly, bitter. hollow and bad

She walked out

I drank myself so deep

I almost died

Just another failed attempt

Of the countless I've tried

Feels like my life is just a long bus ride

going through a tunnel

And I just dont want to see the other side

I hate me

I drain me

I blame

I'm crazy

I'm too angry

Dying slow in this living hell

Soul is gone

Walking through

An empty shell

Bongani Mhlangu

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Drinking can lead us to bad places. A sad story in the poem. Most of us learn the hard way. A powerful and sad poem. Thank you for the excellent poetry.
Coyote