Death Bed Confession

So many thoughts are stuck in my head, and when I tried to pull some free this is what happened. Let me know what you think.

The Ramblings Of A Mad Man

 

I could change the way I speak

I could change the way

I walk, talk and hold my fork

But really what would I do that for?

You really think I’m going to change the way just make you like me a little more?

 

Allow me to clear up some common misconceptions immediately

I will never care non-believers think

I will never let somebody elses negativity defeat me

Its not your thoughts but mine that define me

 

If you had to look deep into my eyes

You’d be surprised

My eyes never reflect this world we live in

They reflect something different

A life of great significance

 

I’ve always dreamed of being more

Never successful never happy

Just more

A desperate need for approval that burnt in me since I was four

I know a lot of the time I act like nothing ever phases me

But my fear of rejection keeps the real me prisoner inside

And I fear that one day my insecurities will eat me alive

There are a lot of secrets I keep that eat away at my insides

 

My child hood dreams keep getting further

I watch them leave me and cry

How could something so important

Be allowed to die?

 

Leila I still remember the day you popped into my life

In a cave of darkness you were the light

When everything around was going wrong

You were the only one who showed what was right

And time and time and time again we would fight

But then we’d be laughing about it that night

Nothing was ever too big an issue

I pray to God every night to tell you I miss you.

 

Izu I don’t even know where to begin from

The devil tried to break my life apart

You came into it with so much love in your heart

You gave strength to me

And its thanks to you

That I am now the man I have come to be

 

Kaela when I speak to you I feel like my mind is set free

You will have my heart

Until the day the angels come to get me.

 

Bongani Armstrong Mhlangu

Reviews

[Loner]

An awesome write beautifully portrayed
when a man is confused and his /her mind is
all jumbled up.

[Cole Hayley]

Until the day the angels come to get me. Beautiufl ending my friend, to cap off a perfect poem.

[Junert]

I love the begining. Love it.

[melissa's heart]

Oh B.C. This is my favorite of all your poems thus far. I love the acknowledgement of emotions hiden, dreams yet to fulfill. The hope that is in this poem is inspirational and delightfull. Great job my dear friend. Great job!

[Coyote Poetry]

I don't know. I don't believe in death bed confession. Best to leave the bad stuff dead and bury. I have a list of things I wish I didn't do. Can't change the past. Can change the future. A very good poem. Open the door to a interesting conversation. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote

[afra]

simply beautiful ...well done

[Dark Tower]

Thank you Afra, you always the first one to read, much appreciated.