The Devil Understands What Others Fear

A little trip down memory lane.

So often it comes like a snake of twisted thought it bites then devours every thought

but the one we wish we could ignore.

I held it back as a child for fear of myself.

It excited me so to bring pain to be in control.

 

I listened to the words of fear sorrow and bullshit he preached to me telling me of what was right

and the pitfalls of all done wrong.

He was nothing but a coward who played by the rules never taking what he truely desired.

 

The first time he saw it in my eyes he struck me to the floor.

My lip gave a crimson trail a taste so sweet I cherished it so.

For as I viewed this sad beaten man I shed no tears only looked into his eye's and smiled.

 

He struck me harder his fear was so wonderful.

My head bounced on the hardwood floor.

Got anymore ?

 

His hands trembled he was in that pure moment of weekness and blind rage.

His steel toed boots met my ribs sending sweet agony through my veins.

Again he kicked.

 

The air forced outta my lungs although in pain it was my father who was breaking.

What the hell is wrong with you why do you smile you monster.

 

Forcing the words for the my blood filled mouth.

Cause daddy one day I'll kill you.

 

Doubled over in pain I begain to laugh.

For I saw in his eyes what I was so very much in love with.

the freeedom it brought better than any drug some weak fool could shoot in his arm.

 

That drug called fear.

It consumed me for he knew I had no true fear in my blackend soul if I had one at all.

Pain can be survived it can be dealt out and I was able to take it as well.

 

I was no son of a bible thumping coward.

No coward to worry over what some fairy tale did belive.

I played on my own level.

 

And as I layed there my father standing over me broken by the act of his own rage I knew.

I wouldnt shed a tear when one day I would stand over him.          

Reviews

[Lily Mae]

I felt like I was outside the front window watching it all go down. Your descriptions of these events and emotion is raw and powerful..
The last line lands it straight in my heart... and I so get it...xxx

[Richielee]

yes!yes!yes!!!!! love it, did we have the same father? lol brilliant write with excellent lines and a top narration,thankyou for sharing Mr Joker ( i love The Dark Knight)

[Tai Ryens]

Nicely written, shows a lot about your dark writings, haha. I like this one, Keep it up!

[Pebbles]

brillaint write ....are u the same joker as from Gonzo's pub ?