finding myself

I've gone through so much,
My whole life I wasn't sure who I was. 
I've looked everywhere to find a such,
Like trying to find your favorite song. 

I've had a great time trying to find my self,
I liked being popular, I felt important for once. 
But most popular only cared for wealth. 
So that was off my map of life. 

Then I tried the chill-outs,
That back stabbed me. 
Turned out bad and are convos were shouts. 
That also was off my map. 

Then I tried the guys,
That must of been my favorite. 
This was no gossip or lies. 
But then names were thrown at me... Off list. 

I tried just a normal group,
Seems there's no such thing of normal. 
It was actually gossip and a big loop. 
Another failure of who I am. 

Why can't the be artist different ppl?
People who don't think I'm weird. 
Then, like all books the best the last of the sequel.
The people who care for me and don't get all dramatic. Called FRIENDS. 

Though, sadly not much of those...
Guess just back sidebars and liars. 
I wish I was liike them and chose. 
How did they find it in them?

I'm lost in life,
Like immigrants with a map. 
I can't be found. 
I'm on my own journey to find myself.

Reviews

[paradise]

EXCUSEEE MEE!!!!! I always will exept you! through hard times and good times i am always going to be here for you! I love you jess your gonna have to take the journey on your own to find yourself but always remember while you walk down there are always lights and signs helping you those are who you call friends the ones that try to stop you are ones who dont matter the ones who get in pyour way were never meant to be a good friend Love you babe :)

[tekphobik]

A very good rendition of going through different groups of people trying to find oneself, but I find the idea of identity through others a terrible concept. In order to truly find oneself you must be able to be comfortable alone, and then those who accumulate around you will be solid friends that you can count on.

[No name]

I think we all need to find out who we are and who we want to be and it can be difficult sometimes. One thing when determining who we are, we shouldn't let other people tell us what or who we should be. Also we all face those kind of people and yes they are jerks but in a way they are just going to make you stronger without even knowing it. Great write and I am sorry for everything.