Long Lived Fear

It's getting to be time for Halloween :)

Why can't the urges be controlled?

That hate I harbor increases tenfold 

I have to hid so I don't see red

Impulses I once willingly fed

All that is held in wants to come out

I wander off so that I can let out a shout

That filthy longing to see blood on my hands

My body and instincts fighting my demands

Today, I'm not me anymore

This evil feeling has overtaken my core

I can't hide the red in my eyes

For the final day my mouth spews out lies

I'll start with her

Where most my hateful feelings occur

I can't stop my body now

Killing the next one I found

Time moves and I see the sun set

An angry growl I let

Mother, sister, brother, cousin, father

I didn't even bother

Now, their guns pointed at me

I know what this world needs

My death is next

Everything was already fixed

Mother cries as she strikes me down

They flee and my body is found

Hell's flames burn my skin

I look up to see my kin who reside in heaven.

Author's Note

Review please :) <3

Reviews

[Nath]

I particularly like the beginning, a very good description of the feeling of losing control as the madness one fought takes over. I think the fight and the despair that comes with sensing one is losing it is very well portrayed.
Overall a really good poem, congrats on winning "Nutcase"! :-)