Stream of Conciousness

A diary entry using the stream-of-conciousness technique

He used to like me maybe still does not sure maybe was moody at the shopping centre with friends before the movie was okay in school sat at other end of class instead of exactly in front of me does he like me? he liked me more when i liked him as a friend twisted logic no logic at all all twisted asked him if my nose was red said go ask the girls what is wrong why what did i do i did too much did nothing didn't know what to do what to do what to do now still like him like him even more but don't like him like him but don't like him he is a friend that's it that is why i am so upset he is one of my friends and he is being wonky not just a boy if he was just a boy crush love infatuation wouldn't care but he is a friend worth something i care what is wrong? something is wrong finished draft of masterpiece after thirty times but don't care because there is something wrong i don't know what i know i should love people properly without caring about what others think i should do that yeah if he means more because he is a true friend i'll do what's right i don't care just finished first draft masterpiece thirty times and don't feel anything why what's wrong okay ive finally gotten over my first love true love loved him so much and he didnt even break my heart my parents did took him away made him disappear nothing but a dream and now i have friends have masterpiece have horses have nothing i have nothing i have nothing i want nothing i have nothing i am empty no memories no feeling no emotion nothing nothing i have nothing nothing i have nothing what is it why am i like this can't tell him no no he will see he might not care he might not show me i don't know i have nothing no memories worth remembering no dreams what to do what to do i olympics showjumping but i write masterpiece literature gabriel garcia marquez nobel prize but what is wrong why do i feel like this why can't i tell my friends especially him i told him everything he made it disappear without feeling wonky why now when i really care what if i tell him and he says nothing no problem actually absolutely no problem because i dont need to be the fire and he the moth no no no because i do not have a crush on him no i dont want him to fall in love with me no he is my friend i will tell him everything he will make it better without any crush no like no attraction no because i am not his girlfriend no no no i am his best friend feel better now love him love her love all of them best friends this world has i will tell him yes tell him everything because he no lover no no no he my best friend best friend best friend best in the whole word yes yes yes all of them tell him everything say sorry be too polite yes 

Author's Note

my first diary entry as stream-of-conciousness

Reviews

[YouoweYoupay]

Muddled emotions. Spontanious flow of thoughts. A strange unique type of self-expression. Nice work. Keep writing.

-Wella.