to my first love

i’m only telling you this for me , i don’t like having this burden on my shoulders because my feelings are valid just as much as yours , you ain’t gotta reply just listen . i wanted you , i got you and down the line you made me feel like i needed you , i would drain myself trnna get you to understand , speak to me any way just treat me like nothing , i allowed that , that was my fault , everything you told me about me repeatedly i started to believe , i started to believe it cause i thought you was my person , you never let me express myself the way i wanted you played games w my mind that drained me as a person, i lost myself cause of you but me to , i allowed it , it’s my fault but you played your part in it to , i fell in love w a person that made me blind , i let the toxic come in my space and became toxic myself but i’ve learned a lot and mature a lot from it so thank you for that , you gave me a great lesson and ima take that , now i wanna accept and move on , im telling you this for me not for you , to take this burden off my shoulders and not feel halfway in and halfway out , i’m apologize for hurting you and i mean that from the bottom but i was hurting to & i don’t think you ever understand that & i’m not trnna be back in your life it’s understandable that it just wasn’t meant to be �'�, i always broke my back for you , that was my choice & you never gave me the credit or appreciate it , you said it but never showed me , i apologize once again , and i know i can’t fix something that is unrepairable , but this is for me not for you , i will always have love for you but i will never be that girl you fell in love w , i’m way stronger now

Author's Note

please lemme know your thoughts

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Well, I'm 72 years old, so I'm unfamiliar with a lot of the slang and abbreviations of the young, but basically this is an old story. First love, first experience, first hurt. The pain is still evident. I could tell you it will fade, but that's no help now. All that can be done is to release it and let it go as it will. Learning is often painful.

[Daphine Gray]

you hit it right on the nose , im older now i learned to let go , i started damaging myself holding on .

[BlackPrince]

I like the way you expressed your heartfelt emotions towards your first love who seemingly and clearly took you for granted.

It's full of meaning and truth.

But I think you put too much together without allowing any space between sentences.
You need to restructure your poem. You need to put it into stanzas (paragraphs),
and put the appropriate punctuations in the right places.


WELL DONE

[Daphine Gray]

thanks & i appreciate your opinion

[Zoey]

Wow just wow.....like seriously👌🔥

[Daphine Gray]

thanks 💖💖

[Zoey]

No problem