That time I almost relapsed...

A Poem by Danzig16

2 years into my recovery and fortunately didn’t use.

*Little did you know
I had some dope in my bag
It's hard to say the truth
But I did intend to use.

I felt I had nothing to lose
I thought this was my choice to choose

But little did I know
An angel had my back
Her plan was a little different
She told me not to take that smack.

The devil told me to do it
Says it'll be okay
But chancing it & realizing what I have today
Drove me a different way.

The addict said stay
It's only for today
Do it or it's a f*****g waste
Don't throw that s**t away.

Packed up in paper
In a hidden spot safe
Maybe another day you'll want it
But my head said F**K that s**t.

The battle lasted hours
And at the end I was drained
Never did I ever
Think I'd be this way.

I know my life is worth living
I believe it's not my time
But all of my emotions lingering
Could kill me at the drop of a dime.

My head spins still
Back and forth over & over again
There is a void I'm trying to fill
And my salvation is this pen!!