Time

Lost time

This time lapse
Has completely slipped my mind
Left me lost trying to find
A balance in this lifetime

It's only a matter of time
Before everything you know changes
You're left pulling your a*s up
by the bootstraps
Even if you know you're unable to attack

The lack..

Of time not spent how it should have been

Wasted.

Never giving 100 as a friend

Cold.

Not a worry in the world
when I could hear your voice

But now the worry doesn't leave.
Unfortunately It's not by choice.

Never knowing which way is up.
Or where you can go to feel down
When you're alone it's guts wrenching
But you don't want anybody around.

Your mind reverts back to being a child
Your soul is lost but you're still trying to smile
You feel so small
For feeling so sad
You feel so weak
Maybe because you never had a dad?

You've always had to be strong
All along...
You were the one that had
To watch over the backs
Of your 2 little sisters
While your mothers motivation lacked.

She didn't let him be apart of our lives
And left us to fend for ourselves
He had tried to give his time
But without money in his pocket
that was f*****g denied.

A crime. Lost in time.

Still trying to decide
what my purpose is for this lifetime.

By taking care of the elderly
It led me to believe
That there is a better place
Someday that We will all be.

A place where time doesn't exist
And there are no sudden exits
No upsets that are detrimental to your mental health
Some of that s**t you've never felt

but those were the cards you were dealt.

With that track record behind you
It's as if you crumbled to the fight
Giving up was never an option
But it lingers in your mind tonight.



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