Relapse

H.old O.n P.ain E.nds

I was told...
that things would never be the same
Today I only have myself to blame.
I let all the shame keep me stuck in this game
And it's been so long that I don't remember being sane.
This pain...
I feel it in my bones, more so when I jones but it's a constant groan within me.
I no longer feel free and have given up on my dreams
Although sometimes it seems that I still have hope left in my veins.
These pains...
They have no source it's just a sporadic course
Killing my slowly, & turning me into a walking corpse.
Too many people I know have died from this disease
They bleed to change but continue to stay the same
Until one day it's too late and they only have themselves to blame.
It's a shame.