A Dark Time

So my old man has got me pissed

I’m so mad I’ve got my brain in a twist

I run to my stash

And down a drink that should be in the trash

Then in kicks the buzz

And I go crazy like a drunk me does

 

A few hours later

I’m not only mad but I have feelings that are making me a hater

So I run to the store

And buy another drink that’ll to my brain distort

Now I’m hyped

So happy I no longer need to fight

But fast forward and these confusing feelings return

Those feeling I simply can’t discern

And as soon as I feel like there is no release

I take another drink for relief

 

Now that was only day one

On following days I had even more so it was over done

I never went to bed earlier than three

While I was on this drinking spree

All because I was angry and confused

And my sanity it reduced

 

Finally at the end of the week

I could barely eat as I felt weak

My skull felt like it was going to split

As my stomach wanted to upchuck and spit

I cried there alone in bed

As I wished I was dead

 

I realized drinking accomplished a few hours of reprieve

But the anger and feelings I felt it did not relieve

And right there I screamed

JESUS SAVE ME

And I knew it was time for a change

No more could I let these feeling leave me so deranged

And I wasn’t going to change because it’d make anyone else happy

No, I was going to change because I finally wanted it

I know it won’t happen over night

But with God’s help this plan will take flight!

Reviews

[Jack Buckner]

A dark place indeed. Thanks you for posting this wonderful poem!

[MomzillaNC]

Looking for solutions to our ailments in worldly answers often leads to worse ailments, as with drinking. Thankfully, you looked to the Lord at last. My prayers are with you.