My Monster

I want to stand and scream from the rooftops

But I don't want anyone else to hear.

My tears keep falling like raindrops

Drowning me, drowning me while it laughs

I know it's not real, I know no one else hears;

But it screaming at me louder still.

I send it away, into the shadows of my mind;

But it claws it's way back to scratch me one more time.

It's always there. Always telling me;

That I'm not pretty

That I'm not beautiful

That I'm not normal

That I'm not special

That I'm not loved

But I am.

And that's just it. It's the monster that's inside of me.

And it's dying to get out.

Author's Note

This is my new edit of an old poem, my views of self image have changed and i felt that the words needed to change along with it.

Reviews

[Richard Layne]

Good for you! Tell that monster to get out and stay out. It's the great thing about writing and rewrites.

[Matthew]

I can relate to this a lot, including the part about your self image changing as you grew. When I was a teen, I felt exactly like you feel in this poem. Now, as an adult, this brings back memories I'd forgotten on purpose.

[DanielleA94]

I'm glad that you can relate to the idea that I changed as I grew up, when I read it again I realised that my view of myself had changed drastically and that the poem needed to change along with it!

[Shane Blackheart]

And this monster is a terrible thing that a lot of us have inside. It's hard to block out those demeaning thoughts that plague us, the negative ones you have mentioned in your poem, which expressed your emotions well.

[BeccaB]

wow this is realy well written i enjoyed it so much itsends a srong feeling up through my inner being and gave me goosbumps ^_^

[~Sarah~ Idríel T..]

WOW this poem gave me shivers! Really.