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free verse poem semi biographical part fictional

its hard to say how it started

it seems that i've always been this way

that itching feeling 

unnerving 

always in the back of my mind 

constant worries 

constant fears

constant anxiety 

i have always had to be strong 

for myself 

lost in the middle

no one notices 

i am stuck here 

between a rock and a hard place

i try to purge myself 

but nothing seems to work

i know that i will never be the prettiest

the smartest

the most athletic 

the most talented 

the most anything

i just wanted to be something 

something you would notice

something you would want

but you were too blinded 

by your own selfish desire

to see me standing here

with open arms

no you walked right past me

never even acknowledged my presence 

now i walk with my head down

never looking anyone in the eyes

scared that they'll see 

what i am hiding within

something i cant control

something dark and twisted

something that is trying to crawl its way to the surface

a little demon 

i pretend that nothing is wrong

i smile to hide what is going on inside

a war

raging between good and evil

always a constant battle

one day the evil will surface

and i am scared that i wont be able 

to control it 

that it will overcome me 

and take over

Reviews

[Hiddenfire]

It starts out almost frenetic and agitated and the more you go along with the poem the deeper it gets and the more you find out why. I liked that about this piece and it was more than enough to keep me interested till the end. I enjoyed it.