Loss

My deepest thoughts.

There are no coherent thoughts when you long for one you may never be able to call your own, when there is someone dangerous in the way. You have brought this upon yourself, the words you spilled cut like a blade, but you don’t feel it, the remorse, the sympathy, you’re blinded by someone who wouldn’t even move an inch for you, who wouldn’t do a task for you unless you pry at them desperately. They have had you construct an untrue image of yourself simply so they may be the one you rest your head upon for solace. They have turned you into someone you are not, and then they coax your heart along with sweet words and empty promises, promising that it will be okay again.
You have made many mistakes, you have loved and been loathed, you have caused a distaste in the mouths of those who ponder you for even a second. But it is not you, not anymore, and that, they will never comprehend. They will never understand that your past has turned you into something you have no control over. They will never understand how you have become what you were once plagued by, someone who manipulates and sucks the life out of people simply because they have known nothing else, they have known no love, only loss and lies.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

there are these people who prey on others' weakness of self-esteem and heart...
like they aren't worth loving but these folks will act like they are samaritans of good deeds by loving them.
It is loss before it is gained...that is this kind of love.
a really good prosy work...

j.

[Fairy Khan]

So relatable and strongly expressed.

[Markell]

Wow. That is really powerful stuff. Very eloquently expressed. I really admire this writing

[Daniela]

Thank you! (: