I'm My Own Worst Enemy

The worst enemy you can have is yourself.

There's a voice inside my head

That always tells me 

"You're not good enough"

"You'll never be anything"

But I always listen to it because

I am my own worst enemy,

I tell myself I'm no good,

No one will ever talk to me

You're always the underdog

That no one really cares about

I'm my own worst enemy because

When I get a compliment I turn

It into a nasty comment,

Because I don't believe in myself

I cut,

I scream,

I listen to music

To drown out the feeling of hating myself,

I starve,

I overeat,

I crash diet

All to kill the pain racing inside of me

I'm my own worst enemy

I hate myself,

I know I can never love myself

Because I take everything into consideration

I feel like no one likes me...

Maybe because I don't like myself...

I'm trapped inside this prison cell,

With no way to get out

Author's Note

My thoughts on what it would be like if I was my own enemy...

Reviews

[Liza]

i think most of us go through this stage of transition; when we know we want to be something but haven't had the training or belief to be in alignment. women fall into self sabotaging actions with the starvation, overeating and dieting because the media serves the masses on whats beautiful and if we don't fit the color, shape, symmetrics and stance of what they advertise - we start punishing ourselves for not being lovable....but then later we discover that this shell is deeper - and life is still too beautiful and precious to allow ourselves to live from the outside in rather than inside out.

[Grace Catherine C.]

Wow, sad, deep, intense.

[BrynnaW.]

So sad but beautifully written... We all go through this and I absolutely loved the way you wrote about it! Brilliant! Good job and keep on writing!

[Dragon]

This sounds very real. People just let their emotion get ahead of them so no wonder some of us are weak. This is a very good poem you put into your own words. I enjoyed reading. Great write. :)

[Branch Isole]

Such "voices" live for their seedlings have been planted and watered by those who in our past have laid claim to 'love us' most. Yet we inately know different. As you have pointed out, in reality, we are our own worst enemies.

You hit the nail on the head. No one can hurt us the way we hurt ourselves. The lines about cutting, starving, overeating, crash dieting, all physical manifestations of the abuse we inflict on ourselves emotionally. This is raw and emotional, and if you've not felt this way personally then you are very intuitive and expressed the feelings well. Nice work.

[Daft Jester]

Ah, teenage angst. I hope you don't really feel like this. :) Excellent poem, though, it reminds me a little of me.

[Blue Moon Ice Cream]

I heard the message that "you are your own worst critic" a few years ago and it's always stuck with me, with every story and poem I write. It's so true. Nice point, one that I think can encourage many people.

[Chris]

Ta'Sha,

You wanted me to hear this... so I really, really listened.

No platitudes or off-the-cuff psychobabbles. No allusions, illusions, delusions, ormissed-perceptions. Toward you - you're worth the knowing and hearing. Toward the poem -

Midnight's silence
every hour, every day...

and you can't give up
cause they won't let you in the game

and its me - has to be me
cause... cause...nobody is that mean
for no reason and always.

But yes hon - they ARE.

Take care,
Chris

[FallenWingz]

wow you jsut expressed me...some of these things i am undergoing & it is really terrible how we can feel about ourselves, sometimes i'd punish myself becos i deserve it.. my therapist is working to get me too love myself I hope.

[Becky C Strukamp]

Pain, Pain, and more pain. I so relate to everything in this poem. With each line read, I realized how critical I am of myself. A reminder to stand up and be proud of ourselves and not put ourselves down. We all are good in God 's eye and no one else but ourselves matter. Excellent Poem.SO much to ponder.