I'm My Own Worst Enemy

The worst enemy you can have is yourself.

There's a voice inside my head

That always tells me 

"You're not good enough"

"You'll never be anything"

But I always listen to it because

I am my own worst enemy,

I tell myself I'm no good,

No one will ever talk to me

You're always the underdog

That no one really cares about

I'm my own worst enemy because

When I get a compliment I turn

It into a nasty comment,

Because I don't believe in myself

I cut,

I scream,

I listen to music

To drown out the feeling of hating myself,

I starve,

I overeat,

I crash diet

All to kill the pain racing inside of me

I'm my own worst enemy

I hate myself,

I know I can never love myself

Because I take everything into consideration

I feel like no one likes me...

Maybe because I don't like myself...

I'm trapped inside this prison cell,

With no way to get out

Author's Note

My thoughts on what it would be like if I was my own enemy...

Reviews

[Liza]

i think most of us go through this stage of transition; when we know we want to be something but haven't had the training or belief to be in alignment. women fall into self sabotaging actions with the starvation, overeating and dieting because the media serves the masses on whats beautiful and if we don't fit the color, shape, symmetrics and stance of what they advertise - we start punishing ourselves for not being lovable....but then later we discover that this shell is deeper - and life is still too beautiful and precious to allow ourselves to live from the outside in rather than inside out.

[christeechung ♥]

I love it~

[dreaming dame]

Very well put. Sad, but it seems like this is happening more now than ever before.

[brenda]

nice eyah i can realte to this i used t be liek this but everyione is beautiful !:)

[Yina]

I'm so relieved that htere's that "if"! Wow imagining someone doing all this to themself is really sad:( Good write!

[LiveLaughLove]

we may all be our worst enemy, but people give you comments because you are worth it
i agree with Liza that we all go through this sometime in our life
bagging on all our insecurities when we shouldn't care what anyone else thinks
great write.
:)

[Coyote Poetry]

A wise person don't need to believe words of foolish people. Negative words create walls of hate and sadness. Each of us are different. Need to look for the good in another. Not the negative. The poem open the doors to many questions. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote

[Cassiopia Summers]

This is really good, specially because it isn't a real feeling you have. Great write.

[Hello, Goodbye]

veryrelatable content here.. I too feel the feelings you express and act in a way that is detrimental.. its a despondency that is residual in its hopeless nature.. and breaking out from the sad cycle is a difficult thing to achieve..

[DONALD EISSLER]

We have all been our own worse enemy... me many times over ... now you have got me thinking about how many times ... gee thanks ... lol very good write enjoyed it much
tk

[Hidden_identity]

That was amazing!! You grasped the idea of the poem really well. This really spoke to me because, alas, I am my own worst enemy.