How Could It Be?

How could it be, that I lose my son
To a drug deal gone bad?
How could I not see the signs,
The changes in his attitude?
How could it be?

He use to be a straight A-student,
Then he started slacking off;
I thought all boys his age did that,
But I was wrong

I thought his sudden 'hunger attacks'
Were a part of him growing
And becoming a man,
But I was wrong about that too

How could I be so stupid, and naive?
How did I not realize this?

I'm such a horrible mother!

I hate myself!

I'm the one that drove him to this!

How could I let this happen
To my one and only son?
How did he get addicted
To that disgusting drug
When he was only 16?

Maybe if I were more involved in his life
Instead of wrapped up in my own,
He would still be alive

I just can't comprehend... How could this be....?

Author's Note

This prompt was a mothers regret for her sons death.

Reviews

[Cynthia]

I like it a lot, the pain in this poem, the regrets in this poem, just a lot of emotions. It hurts when a mom lost her son she love, once proud of, but now lost cause of a drug deal. it hurts, but it isn't all his mom's fault, the child need to take responsibility to his actions, what he decided to do. A heart breaking poem.
Nice Written!

[Kat24]

hi,
this is really sad. but it is really good. Kat24

[Fabric Pulse]

Awww...it's painful just as a reader, I can't imagine fully what it took out of you the writer to have written it and shared the story from your own mind and emotion. That's a tough one. It's beautiful though, and should be shared.

[Aidz]

tragic but all to often an occurance

Nicely expressed

[.......]

There is so much pain in this write.
So heart wrenching.

[Beautifully Tragic xPoe..]

I've met some mothers like this, unfortunately. and theres not a whole lot to say to comfort that part. great write.

[Caitlynxoxo]

It's amazing, how you protrayed a mother's pain through a mere few stanzas. I've never had to expirience anything like that, yet after reading this, i sort of understand just how awful it would be, which is what any writer can only hope to do to their readers; show them a world unknown, paths not yet taken, that sort of thing. All in all, this poem was touching; a beautiful view on the reality that is today's world, and the insanity that occurs every day. Good job! :)

xoxo Caitlyn xoxo

[SOUL LESS]

This isn't very well written in the sense that I didn't feel anything reading through. An emotional poem is supposed to make you feel involved. This one didn't.
Maybe the drug theme was too cliche.
Maybe your distressingly blunt approach (no similies, metaphors, allusions etc.) made it plain.
Work on it :)

~SOUL LESS~

[Sunflower/Sara Kendrick]

This is a good one to be out there for mothers to read..We are all naive when it comes to this fact of today's life..Enjoyed reading ..You are not a horrible mother..We trust our children until we find that they are not trustworthy...Sunflower

[Lily Mae]

First I'm so sorry for the loss of her son... and you did a great job expressing the emotions involved...xx

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A very touching and separatist piece, a very well written prose, well done, great read.