I will wait

I don't know. I just like writing.

The mistakes of the past have caught up with me,
Only to let me know that these changes I longed for,
Have not really occured.
This image of who I have wanted to be,
Has been so skewed over these past months,
That I have drifted even further away from figuring out who I am.
This time off was a time to find myself,
But I have only become more lost than I have ever known.
This object that was once a heart,
Has been distorted,
Hardened,
So that it can no longer love.
But there is only one culprit,
Myself.
I let the first thing that caught my eye,
Consume me.
But the thing i thought I wanted so desperately,
Turned out to be the very thing that would lead to my certain destruction.
And that it did.
I have never been the same since,
But i keep letting the thing I hate so much,
Come back,
Time and time again.
It has to end.
I need to find who I once was,
Though I am afraid I have strayed too far off of the path.
I need guidance.
Please steer me back in your direction.
Hold me like you used to,
And keep me safe in your arms.
I need to feel that love again,
But until then,
I will sit,
In silence.
I fear that I will lose myself,
More and more each day,
But only you know how this all will end.
Please let it be happily ever after.

Reviews

[RougeAngel]

wow! well done again! all i can really say is that if you ask for guidance it will be given to you. i'll def pray for that if u like me to. well written!

[katiie]

i cant really think of anything to say..but wow. i really likeed this part...

"Though I am afraid I have strayed too far off of the path.
I need guidance.
Please steer me back in your direction."

He will kyle, He will find you if you show your face. i feel the same way about how i feel disgusted with the things ive done. maybe i shouldnt be posting this kind of stuff over a comment..hahahh

but this is a really good,deep, and honest poem.