Broken Promises

To many hearts I broke

I remember that promises meant so much to me.I remember all the promises people made for me, and the ones I made too.I never kept one, not a single promise I was able to keep.
So it all started with breaking promises.Then I started breaking other things too. Whatever that comes in my way.I started breaking hearts, and in a very weird unpleasant way, I enjoyed it.Something about seeing someone ache because of me was so satisfying.
So at first I broke one heart, then two, then three, then more than you can ever count.I never actually noticed it, because I always thought I was the victim, or somehow I always managed to give myself very good reasons for the s**t I do.And one day, someone that I used, just like everyone else I did use, told me how selfish and toxic I am in words that I can never forget.I was angry and I wanted to cry and shout and tell him how much I hate him. But then it all occured to me.I am selfish.I am toxic.I never loved anyone.Nobody ever touched me or changed something about me, because I never loved someone enough to change.
I just loved the way those people cared for me.I broke a million hearts just for fun, and I loved it because it made me feel good about myself.I don't know what about it thay makes it enjoyable, maybe the fact that it makes me feel less empty.
I realized I'll always be this empty and that I deserve it.So now I knew the truth about me, but I didn't stop, I never wanted to.I've never met a person that I didn't disappoint.And I thought I'd rather be a disappointment than something that is invisible.

Reviews

[pia]

This was a really nice write. Sometimes we place ourselves in a victims position when we really are the cause ourselves. This was a nice insight into self realization of mistakes we as people make and how our actions affect others.
(Critique) apart from this having a really nice concept. I suggest you work on some of your sentence construction " I never kept one, not a single promise I was able to keep" the sentence becomes redundant. Just avoid that. Also avoid run on sentences. And i am sure with practice you can become even better. I loved thisss !!

[Wajiha Nayeem]

An amazing write this is...so very well written...

[Vic]

I think this is a great base for a story. If you could start and end with a specific event I really think it would polish it off. Something like the middle of a break up at the start, and the person walking away angry and hurt at the end while the narrator watches.

It is a good self-analysis story you have.

[jayanth]

its all in the perspectives , i really loved what you were trying to say. Its the choices we make and its upto oneself. everyone has both good and bad in them, its their choices between them that comes out, but the feelings doesn't change for both.


really loved it, keep writing. cheers.

[Joey Nizz]

I just loved the way those people cared for me.I broke a million hearts just for fun, and I loved it because it made me feel good about myself.I don't know what about it thay makes it enjoyable, maybe the fact that it makes me feel less empty.
I realized I'll always be this empty and that I deserve it.So now I knew the truth about me, but I didn't stop, I never wanted to. I've never met a person that I didn't disappoint.And I thought I'd rather be a disappointment than something that is invisible.

Really liked this part, I loved the whole writing in general, your writing is so honest and real.

Thanks for sharing.

[JayG]

Hard to say. Are you bragging or complaining?

A list of, "I did this...then I did that...and after that..." is informative, I suppose. But people read to be entertained, and lists hardly ever do that.

I also have no idea of why you use no spaces between sentences.

But of more importance, in the first paragraph you say, "I never kept one, not a single promise I was able to keep." Forgetting the awkward phrasing, since every word that follows simply lists the kind of promises not kept, which fall under the term "every promise," they say nothing that hasn't been said in the first paragraph, and so are irrelevant.

[Hope]

A darkly truthful work!
Its different and very frank. Loved the way you penned down this.
I think many people can relate to this.
Good work!