The Verdi TheaterA Story by Daniel AffsprungAbout a traveler in ItalyI
Let the record show that I am not particularly fond of classical
piano; I have always preferred jazz. One must understand, I was only
in Florence for one night, and desperately needed something to do. I
arrived awkwardly a half-hour before I was hungry, and after dinner I
discovered with disappointment that my hotel television was broken.
Going to a bar seemed obvious, but I remembered how my conversation
with the waiter had failed, and the choice to find a concert was
easy; I was pushed in the direction of a language I could understand.
The night was loud, and it smelled like rain. It was hot, and I felt
that same feeling of pressure that accompanies a first date. The
theater looked old to me, like everything else in that city. It was
small, and I wondered what famous acts, if any, had been here through
the years as I approached it from an alleyway. I bought a ticket,
looked at the posters from past events, and took a program from the
vested teenager staring blankly at a fading mural opposite himself. I
was glad to be alone.
Sitting down, I realized that the program would do me no good, but
I pretended to read Italian until the lights were lowered and I was
left waiting along with a hundred or so other patrons in the silence
and the dark. The silhouettes of the theater seats rose up like so
many rows of headstones as my eyes adjusted to the atmosphere. I
heard the introduction and watched the lights come up sluggishly on
the yellow wooden stage. All I had gathered from the program was what
I assumed was the pianist's name, Michele. The piano seemed
off-center to me, and I wished I could move it just a few feet to the
right. As the lights rose to their full power, I could see three
lines and a dozen footsteps; the path of the piano leading to where
it waited in the thin dust. There was a moment or two of silence
before she came slowly out from behind the curtain, accompanied by a
slightly younger woman with a newer dress, and falsely blonde hair.
She looked as old as death, and I thought to myself that I should
never name any children I might have after her. The younger woman
impatiently watched the pianist shuffle to the bench and sit down.
The piano was large, and seated in its shadow, Michele looked like a
child who had wandered onstage after a show. Any moment now, some
responsible adult will help her down so the pretty young pianist can
begin the show. That night she played a song like I had never heard
before. I would surely recognize its every note and rest even today.
In the music's presence, the notes sounded new, like no musician had
ever been able to make them in the past. I felt calm, and very
clear-headed, which was refreshing after many days of traveling. The
seat below me, and the foreign country around me dropped away, and I
thought back to my program, and how it might read. II
Michele was born eighty years ago, in the winter. She had a younger
brother, and a younger sister, Caroline. My story's personal
soundtrack danced up and down a spiral staircase on the lower octaves
of the keyboard, as I thought about life in their childhood home.
Michele's father worked in a coal mine, which until his death,
allowed her mother to live comfortably at home. Michele's mother was
forced into working in Michele's teenage years, when her father died
of lung trouble. The transition into work wasn't easy for her mother,
and she probably drank more than a woman should. That year, Michele
discovered the piano.
'What program would tell
all this?' I thought as my attention strayed constantly further from
the music. The keys Michele had known for sixty-four years now rang
out in a more deliberate tempo, and the same few notes elaborated
more and more with each measure.
Michele did not need the piano. She was beautiful, smart, and
popular. She had always been the more perfect form of Caroline.
Caroline lived her entire life in the two-year-old, high-heeled
footsteps of Michele's success. Michele had no money troubles, never
smoked, and didn't need to work. She could have found a job anywhere.
There always seemed to be a man who could buy her a fur coat, or a
new car. Michele was agreeable and charming to everyone she met.
Caroline hated her.
Caroline's life had not been
charmed. The way she saw it, she had lived out all of Michele's
troubles for her. While Caroline was in graduate school, Michele was
in Paris. When Caroline got a divorce, Michele celebrated an
anniversary. Michele would never have any real problems, and both
girls knew it.
Now
Caroline stands on stage, taking her hands from behind her back only
to turn the music pages for Michele. Michele's playing was flawless,
and Caroline stood almost totally still with a look I can't quite
describe. This story was becoming incredibly long and personal, but
in my mind it was perfectly accurate. Caroline stood looking
critically down at Michele with a touch of jealousy in her eyes, like
a scavenger who has found a grounded bird.
III
Yet after these many years, here they are. Michele's husband, the
economics analyst, has died at seventy (cardiac arrest). He's left
behind the mansion, and enough money for his childless widow to live
more than comfortably. Everyone commented how nice it was when
Caroline moved in. Michele's many friends pictured the two sisters
living together contentedly as old age took its toll on the elder
girl's mind. Caroline's mind was still razor-sharp. Nobody saw the
manor redecorated with all her favorite things, the bank accounts
drained for the likes of what she's wearing tonight. The shoes, the
dress that was made to look deceptively humble in its luxury. Brand
new. Bought in Italy. Everything Caroline couldn't have for all those
many years was now hers. Michele stayed in her room, out of sight,
out of mind. Caroline took charge of managing her concerts. The
checks lately were missing well more than ten percent. The rights to
songs were sold away for a pool, despite Michele's fear of drowning.
Nobody heard the things Caroline said after a lifetime of growing
anger and jealousy, or saw her carefully treading the limits of what
Michele's failing mind would give her. As the disease collected its
dues, Caroline scheduled over visits to the doctor, and didn't carry
out Michele's dosage instructions as closely as she should have. The
concerts were booked, the house was remodeled, the bank accounts rose
and fell for Caroline and Michele. The last will and testament was
“corrected”. Michele didn't get mail anymore, and she didn't talk
to anyone Caroline didn't want her to.
'She is in prison.' I thought, 'At least she doesn't know it.'
The injustices Caroline had been through finally were being made
right.
IV
I snapped from my waking dream back to reality, where the crowd was
rising to their feet in applause. I clapped along with the men and
women who knew the story from the program, and were unaware of the
life I had created for the two sisters. I walked out past the mural
and stood smoking under the marquee lights for some time. It seemed
the rain had come and gone, and everything felt refreshed and new.
The night eventually quieted to a volume of my liking, and I threw a
still burning cigarette into the street where a cyclist unknowingly
ran it over. In the alley, I saw the woman I had named Caroline,
arguing with a man holding a checkbook. As I drew nearer, she lowered
her voice gradually into silence, and glared at me as I passed, with
perfect, analyzing vision. I turned away, not knowing how to feel
towards her. A car was waiting in the shadow of the theater, and I
recognized Michele's older dress in the back seat. I stopped, smiled
in a small way and waved to her, just a fan wishing to express his
admiration.
I stopped waving, Michele just looked straight ahead. It was the
look of someone lost deeply in thought, only different; ruined by the
story of her life that she didn't know. She wasn't lost in thought,
she was simply lost.
I turned away, leaving the periphery of her blank stare, unnoticed.
I felt a sudden fury towards Caroline, but I knew I had no place in
the life of this woman who used to be so beautiful. I put my hands in
my pockets and was disgusted by the presence of the flask I had
brought to the concert, as I walked away.
The next morning I sat down to a breakfast I had no appetite for,
and a newspaper full of obituaries I couldn't read. © 2011 Daniel Affsprung |
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