The Pain of Patience

Oh, in the solitude of night

my heart is a flaming stone

aching, groaning, screaming

craving a simple touch

to be known

an embrace to scrape a spark

a tender word to soak my ears

a pair of eyes to awaken longing

gentle fingers to thread with mine

bonding tears

Sometimes I'm at peace

Sometimes I'm just numb

Sometimes I ache inside

unable to sate my lungs

I can clutch at my chest

howl at the moon

tie my hands to fists

harrow my dour mood

But alas, the only comfort to be found is within

And, at times, the effort is tremendous

I must exercise patience against my blazing heart

Which feels like utter madness

Asphyxiation of my ardor

Evisceration of eagerness

Smothering my writhing spirit

Endeavor of a masochist

Oh God, I need Your peace!

Calm the torrent of these raging seas!

Write my story how You see fit

and give me the strength to accept and endure it

to repose in peace and take hold of sleep

To breathe in

Breathe out

and say

so be it

Reviews

[barleygirl]

First & foremost, this is a highly artful depiction of that howling madness that seizes us, often around midnight & not letting go until dawn. I love how you make this nightly torture seem beautiful, not gory. It's a backwards way to celebrate the pain that throws us into God's arms. Some say, "if God is all blah-blah-blah, then why so much suffering?" Your poem shows the slow excruciating surrender that can sometimes take a string of hard knocks to accomplish! Also, not taking this as a spiritual message, I can read it as the more mundane torture of that confounding earthly love journey with mere mortals. Further, this is a strong portrayal of the torturous strife in our country lately which sometimes seems like it will tear us all apart in many ways. Great writing! Love your complex & meaningful word choices, as well as other fun stuff like alliteration (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

And so shall it be and all shall be well- facing your glfears and inner demons is the only way to quieten the heart- know that the lies that make u feel this way have no strength or power over you you alone are in control- say it believe it live it- deep write 🌹