I'm Sorry

 I’m sorry for being so needy

But once I have love I need to be clingy

I have been alone so many years now

But I always make pig ears of it but I don’t know how

I been abandoned far so long

To finally have a mummy is it so wrong

It just been me against the world

Then you come it a whole new world

I’m sorry for wanting love

To be a son but also brov

I’m sorry I crave to be a family member

You said the sad words which I can remember

I’m sorry for wanting my life back

I’m sorry for wanting to get my childhood on track

I’m sorry for being here

Let the things make me disappear

I’m sorry I get in the way

So what the point for me to stay

But I realise maybe it’s all a dream

Because the same happens in every scene

I get love then it goes

My bad feelings do show

Feeling of being alone

Makes my heart turn to stone

Feeling of nobody needs me

All this you can’t even see

Feeling of people don’t care

Just tell me if you have no love to spare

Feeling of feeling numb

Makes your brain go deadness and dumb

Feeling no one ever loved you

Believe me the feelings do kill

No listen and listen well

Do you get it or do I have to rebel

My heart tell me things everyday

It was my heart going to be thrown away

Well this is the end of the line

I take every pill of mine

So I say goodbye my life and my dream

Because this is my final chapter of the dyeing scene

Life is so meaningless and my life not even worth a smile

Because I’m so full sickness and vile

Don’t cry for me I’m not worth any tear

My heart can’t be fixed by any engineer

So good bye this is my fate

Slower it stops my heart rate

Is it so wrong to feel alive again?

So I will R.I.P

Amen 

Reviews

[Alicia™]

This poem is so beautiful, and heartbreaking… Every line is raw with emotion. Completely gorgeous.

Just hang in there, and things will turn out okay in time. Your writing is amazing. Reading all these reviews, I see that you have a lot of people who really care about you. You'll always have your pens and paper. You'll be okay.

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- yes - i completely echo every thing serah says here - you must really, really NEVER EVER speak of dying - you're brave and special and gifted and amazing - and clingy????? - that's a ridiculous thought - you've been hurt and traumatized and then some more - and god knows - you deserve every single drop of love and adulation and care that this world has - you're a little boy with a heart of gold - and ANYONE - who doesn't know and see that - doesn't know or see anything at all - and that is not your fault - there's not enough love in the world - to suffice - and even begin to do justice - to the true gem that you are - and so - its for everyone who loves you - to show you - every single day - just how richly you deserve it -
- and when you're shining full beam - there will be the salve that will ease the pain - not make it go away - cause it never really can - but to ease it - and that's what we've gotta do - keep our eye on the goal -

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. oh dale ... you are the best poet ever ... and the most courageous person on earth ... but please ... NEVER ... speak of dying ... you are not clingy at all ... you have been through a lot of excruciating pain at a very young age and at the hands of those who were supposed to protect you ... you were betrayed and hurt by them ... you need all the support you can get for those wounds to heal ... and that is your right ... like every boy in this universe ... you have the right to happiness and love and all the care in the world ... you deserve all the goodness that this universe has to offer ... all the colours of joy and love and well being ... and celebration ... you are a precious gift ... and you don't need to be sorry ... like every child in the world ... you don't need to be sorry for being a child ... it is the duty and responsibility of adults all around you to take care of you with respect and affection ... not by slighting you ... and not by making you feel that you're getting in the way ... but by honouring your effort and dedication to living a happy and flourishing life ... by respecting your sensitivity ... by giving due importance to the sheer pain and betrayal that you have already been through ... by being patient, and loving and giving ... by giving you all the comfort, warmth and relief that you need ... you are a hero and a rockstar and an awesome person ... you deserve only the best and the truest of care and attention ... but whatever happens ... never ever speak of dying ... you have to live and rock the world ... you have to make the world boogie ... you have to rule this world ... with your golden talents and your golden soul ... you have so many fans ... you can't let them down ... you have to be there for them ... they're waiting to boogie with you ... like me ... i know i am waiting like hell ...