Flashes Before Your Eyes

I'm slowly bleeding away now
the light above dim slowly
as time loosens its grasp upon me
letting me see the life I've lived.
How i wasted it,
so many years of doing nothing
how can i say i was ever truly alive
when i never really lived?
Is the answer hidden in my past,
in my memories or maybe my laughs?
The few that i had time to share
along with the few people
that i know really cared.

That was it
my one real chance to take everything
to get anything i ever really wanted
and i blew it
i let it go
thats where it, my life
truly ended.
On that cool summer afternoon
so many years ago
i passed by her
with out so much as a second glance
I gave up my one and only chance.

Its cold when you think about it
knowing in your heart what is real
but telling yourself in your mind that
a love like that is something that no one can feel

My eyes fluttered
bringing me ahead in my life
showing me a time when i did have a wife.
She was a b***h
not of the money grabbing sort
but of another breed
the kind that would steal your heart
and frame you for her horrid deeds
before leaving you in the middle of nowhere
to be left as good as dead.

But its cold when you think about it
knowing in your heart what is real
but telling yourself in your mind that
a pain like this is so unnatural
its something that you shouldn't be forced to feel

My eyes open
then they slowly close
and i start to wonder
is this how every one goes?