Heart Steeped in Darkness

This heart that beats in my chest
is seeped in darkness darker than the rest.
Its a cynical stew
of love and things that I never knew.
The troubles are things that allow me my growth
of my lifeless shell and my only sworn oath.
Sworn to me through my soul not my past
it is something i must complete, and complete fast.
The beat returns once again
immortal, I stand and smile a grin
this is my curse
caused by my heart
what could be worse?
this is a fight
that I can never win
through an eternal night.
Continue the path of oath and righteousness
then you'll understand the darkness
the kind that surrounds my heart,
the love I give
while I get nothing in return.
I know I can love you,
if given the chance
I know I'm left footed
hell I still don't dance.
I smoke a pack a day
just to wash the memories away.
Do you know what they hide
they conceal you deep inside
keeping me connected to everything you do
just jut tell me what I have to come to.
your heart
love
affection.
Its worthless to me
cant you see
you steeped my heart in darkness
and my anguish fed your glee
now all I can hope is that my final sacrifice made you happy.