A Hymn For Him (My Requiem)

I slide by - open up the door

The sight of you has me questioning ever more

 Eyes closed sitting short of breath  

The cold air chilled with a slight of death

No one can understand the ways that I feel

Scars on my memories that'll never heal  

Your hourglass drops its final grain

You left me here in so much pain

My memories of you stored in the back of my mind

Waiting for me to one day find

Protected by the demons of days once past

Got me questioning how much longer will I last

Surrounded by others but I'm still only lonely  

Hiding away don't leave me alone with me  

These blades shine my name

I'm cutting into their game  

There's no escaping this inner sadness  

My sanity slowly slipping away into the growing madness

And I still feel one day I'll wake up from this dream  

And I'll find you breathing the way it's suppose to seem  

But I know you're gone and never coming back  

You're finally at peace now that your heart went to attack  

Put together for you a bundle of sticks

To celebrate your final deep six

A decades gone

Bringing forth a new dawn

But I still stay away from the inner violence

Hearing your voice through the passing silence

These memories of you keep haunting me

As the demons tease and keep taunting me

I've dealt with the fact that you left me before I could understand  

But it pains me how you left me with nothing but a memory of how to be a man

I look up to the skies

And gently close my eyes

To see you smiling down from up above

Are you happy now that you're with the ones you love  

I'll write all my pains to you  

Give all my thanks to you

Until that one day when we finally meet again

I can be worry free like before the stress could begin

Now and then I see your twinkling eyes staring down on me

I stare back and smiling at those twinkling stars I see

To know that you'll always be here  

And I'll always remember you're here