Reflections of Hope And Doubt, Of Pride And Shame, Dazed And Confused

Broken hearts

Mostly mine

But others I've broken from time to time

Not because I wanted to

But that is no excuse

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And yet it makes me contemplate

The suffering of my own foolish way

And accept the consequence as fate

As if it's Karma's debt I pay

I too quickly serve up my heart, as of late

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She doesn't seem to exist

If the physical chemistry attracts mutually

Once sated, my heart she resists

And empty promises I cling to as she leaves me

Alone .... waiting .... thinking of calling it quits

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I try to tally my Karma debt

On past misdeeds, my guilt I reserve

I offer prayers for forgiveness and yet

It seems more than I deserve

In a past life I was Don Juan, I bet.

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My mind, when lonely, will render

Past forks in my life's road

I've friends of opposite gender

Who've been there for me, touching souls

And sweet moments occured I still savor

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Do I really deserve more?

Is it even out there?

Someone who adores me as much as I adore?

Who not only desires me but cares?

It makes one hesitant to open new doors

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And I question the possibility

Even if they want me to try

For though I care so deeply

The options I see in their lives

Seem oh so better than me

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One heart I broke long ago somewhere

Uttered a curse upon parting with me

That I lead a life of lonely dispair

That I never find love completely

It seems that curse is still there

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One never deserves self-pity

Upon myself I keep the curse

If it seems too good to be

I'm prone to make it worse

I've much to learn, you see

Reviews

[Seriana]

This is wonderful Dag. What a reflection of ourselves from time to time when we doubt that love, the existence of what we believe to be true in our hearts.

"Do I really deserve more?
Is it even out there?
Someone who adores me as much as I adore?
Who not only desires me but cares?
It makes one hesitant to open new doors"

My answer is yes, yes, yes and yes. Why should we not deserve all the happiness in love that can be afforded?

I like this also, because it has a wee bit of rhyming throughout that gives it JUST the right amount of push in the flow. It's a wonderful piece. Nice job!