Final debt

It has no end and it has no beginning

It was never silent and yet it never began speaking

Conflict rages on in the mind

Every day we're told to grind

We grind and we grind.... There isn't anything left

It's all been whittled away

I turn and I sway. Change direction they yell

How can I? All of life is a living hell!

Oft times I speak of shallow depths and dull meanings...

But now I speak of an endless pit

The bottom of which I wish to hit

After the free fall if I survive..

I can begin to climb

Back to the top, or maybe even higher yet

To jump and make an endless bet

Can I survive? Or will this be my final debt.

Author's Note

Let me know what you think

Reviews

[T. Jay Keigh]

The struggle is really never ending. People always get advice from others to keep trying or think differently, but it's not easy for everyone.
The "hitting the bottom" line gives off the impression to me that you wish for just one fatal blow and then to start over again. Do you not want to try climbing while you're falling? That way, instead of "IF I survive" it becomes more of you will definitely live another day to try again. Or perhaps "if" leaves it up to mystery and fate. And then I suppose you wouldn't have been able to say "Can I survive?" if you left out the "if."
Also, the line "It was never silent and yet it never began speaking" took me a few reads to understand. Haha. But that's more to do with my own brain processing than anything cause after I read it a few times, I got it. It's saying something like the thing was always making noise and yet never opened its mouth sort of thing. Which is a really strong image if I'm understanding it correctly.
Anyways, thanks for a good read! Keep writing and keep up the good work!

[Evan M.]

Yes that's exactly what I was going for. Thanks for the review!

[That one kid]

An endless cycle comes to mind with this one. How you fall further and further never stopping but if you may you'll only climb back up to fall again.