Pain's back

  The next day i woke up for school, had on black skinny jeans a black
long long sleeve v-neck shirt, black hi rise timberlands. had my
necklace watch locket bracelets and black diamond studs. had my hair
brushed into a ponytail. had put on my hoodie jacket and came downstairs
went in the kitchen got myself something to eat, mom and mami came into
the kitchen. they both said "morning kourt." I didnt say anything, just
got up and walked to the door when i heard a car horn. it was stone
giving me a ride to school as i was finna open the door, i stopped when
mom said "hey." I turned my head to the side, she cont "im picking you
up from school, around 1pm." I made a face, she cont "doctors appt." I
sigh as i left on out the house. Couple hours later during lunch i was
sitting at the table drawing in my sketch pad. couple seconds later Ms.A
came and sat down across from me, she said "hey you." i nod my head,
she cont "miss you this morning..you alright?" I shook my head, she said
"ay look at me." i raised my head up she scared into my eyes, she could
tell something was wrong than she said "promise me you come see me tomorrow." I nod my head she held up her pinkie as she said "pinky
promise?" I laugh as i locked my pinky to hers. then stone and them came
and sat down, while i was sketching, Stone saw mami come inside, she
was talking to Ms.A. he lean towards me and said "your mom's here." i
looked up and grasp when i saw mami and not Kate. I grab my pad and my
bookbag as i got up and walked down the hall. she looked at me and said
"hey ready?" I nod as i walked out the door, we got in her truck as we
was on our way to the doctor's office I was scaring out the window she
looked at me a few times. After the doctors we was driving back to the
house, she ask "how's school?" I didnt answer, she cont "heard you a straight A student." still didnt talked we pulled up in tha driveway, got
out the truck she sigh "you gotta talk to me sometime Kourt." I looked
at her as i said "no i dont." we ended arguing back and forth than i
said "i dont care anymore you left me, i needed you and you was nowhere
to be found." i was trying so hard not to cry, she said "kourt im sorry
ok im sorry i shouldn't have left like that i should've told yall but i couldn't i had to go under right away." I shook my head as i said "i dont
care anymore mom im done." i turned around and began walking towards
the house, then i stopped when she shout "if you dont care than why are
you still wearing the necklace i gave you?" I touched my locket, turned
my head to the side. she saw tears coming down my face than i went in
the house and straight upstairs to my room. laid in my bed rest of the
evening didnt even come out for dinner, just laid up in my bed sketching
in my pad. The next day i got dress and ready for school, got there
went to go see Ms.A. talk for a little bit with her than i went to Jen's
room, my girl was there talking i sat on the floor leaning up against
Simone she began combing my hair, i exhale deeply as she comb my hair,
had rested my eyes as i tilt my head back. Around lunch i had to leave
to go to beachwood, i was in my car finna pull out the parking lot when i
saw Brandon and Marseilles. they scared at me i smirk as i nod my head,
they laughed as they got in the car. had blast my music was also smoking
a mild it was lace with weed. had passed it after i took two puffs.
while i was driving, i was doing my drifting, Brandon said "yo there go
petrie's behind us." I had the top down, i saw her from my rear view
mirror and scoff "f**k her ." Had came to this stop light, she pulled up
along side of me. we didnt pay her no mind was busy smoking and
listening to the music. Then we looked behind us when we heard a car
blow its horn, i smirk as i quickly got out the car after i had grab a
package out the glove department walked up to the car it was Patrice she
smirk as she gave me a roll of money. i walked back to the car, got in.
the light turned green and i sped away got to the school parking lot
had pulled up along side of Kasey’s car, she was leaning on the side of
her car while Robby was sitting on the trunk. got out the car had gave
her a hug, we went inside the school hang out n the cafe for awhile then
went in the classroom. two hours later just as we was finna to leave,
ms.petrie blocked my path, i looked at her with a cold scare. she ask
"where were you yesterday?" I said "doctor's." I tried to walk out the
room she stopped me by putting her hand on me. that when i was finna
lose my temper, Brandon and them eye's widen when they saw she touch me.
I looked at where she was touching me and at her, had the meanest
scariest look on my face. it was saying (if you dont get her hand off of
me im going to bash your head up against this wall). I just jerk myself
back, I mumble to myself. Brandon came and stood behind me as he place
his arm around my shoulder as he said "keep cool homes." she ask "what
did you say?" I looked at her and said "dont ever touch me." she had
made a look i said "like i said i was at the doctor's, if didnt believe
me maybe this will." I pulled up the side of my shirt she grasp when she
saw the gunshot wound. i put my shirt down and walked out the room. Robbie and them walked out the room shaking their head at her. I got in
my car and rode on out to the gas station while i was there i gotten a
call from my older cousin, i said "sup Jess." she said "hey, i need a
big favor." I said "whats up." she ask "think you can be able to pick up
stoney from school today, i got called into the hospital?" I thought
about it and sigh "sure, i pick him up." she said "thanks tru, i own you
one." I said "yea you do, anyway i'll talk to you later." we hung up,
head on back to the school for a little while had made sure all my
homework was done for the day, so i aint gotta worried about it over the
weekend. had went to Simone's locker and waited for her to come. couple
minutes later she came put her stuff up and we head on to the parking
lot got in my car, i told her i have to go over to the middle school to
pick up my little cousin. she said "alright." rode on out down the
street to the middle school had pulled up in the parking lot parked the
car and got out the bell had rung, had came inside was looking for
stormy. Then i heard his voice, saw that he was in the cafe talking to
his friends. Walked up to the cafe door, had also heard someone called
my name. i turned my head and saw that it was mom. I looked at her and
turned my head had shout "yo stormy!" he turned around and smirk when he
saw me. he grab his bag and came on over to me. we did our lil
handshake, he said "what you doing here cuz." i ans "yo mom got called
into work so she ask me to com get you." we walked down tha hall, saw Mel standing by the door. i couldn't even look at her either. went
outside and got in the car had rolled on out dropped Stormy off at his
house than i hung out with simone than dropped her off at home. After
that i went to my secret condo, wanted to be away from everyone. had
took a long hot shower got out sprayed and oil my body down, put on my
briefs, boxers, bball shorts, sports bra and a wife beater had oil and
brushed my hair into ponytail was in the kitchen when i heard a knock at
the door, i went to the door looked through the peephole saw that it
was Mel. i sigh as i stood there, she said "i know you in there open up
kourt." I exhale as i open the door and walked away as i ask "what do
you want?" she closed the door, as she said "we need to talk." I said
"there's nothing to talk about." she said "yes there is, tru im sorry
okay...im sorry for not telling you where your mother was...she told us
not to say anything cause she didnt want to put you guys in danger." I
said "i dont care, she shouldn't never left us, she didnt care about us."
Mel said “hey, she does care about you and miguel..a lot yes it was
wrong for her to leave like that but she never stopped caring or loving
you and miguel we always sent her pictures of you and miguel your mother
was always worrying about you guys she was never too far away from you
guys." I shook my head as i tried not to cry, she cont "that day when
you got shot and you was in a coma, she came back home and stayed by
your side for a whole week, now dont you ever say she didnt care about
you cause she did everyday she was away." I began crying, said "i wish
you told me me we tell each other everything." she stood in front of me
and said "i know, i know im so sorry mi amour." she pulled me into her
arms, wrapped her arms around my neck as i wrapped my arms around her wrist as i cried. we ended up laying on the couch together. Came home
late that night, came inside tha house. my head was starting to hurt
again, went upstairs to my room changed into my pj pants. had my door
cracked opened, mom came outta her room stood quietly as she watched me.
saw i was holding the back of my head as i stood by my window. i began
crying as i slid to the floor. held my legs to my chest, as i held my
head down. mom came in the room kneel down and help me up off the floor
as she said "come on lets get you in bed." she pulled the covers off and
i got in the bed she laid behind me her arms wrapped around me run her
fingers through my hair as she softly sing the pain away. I closed my
eyes, the pain was slowly going away. after awhile she laid awake
scaring out the window looking at the moon as i fell asleep.