Rising Sun

I awake once again
Ready to face a new day
But I find myself unable to rise
Just sitting on the side of the bed
Bound by these senseless doubts
And unreasonable feelings of dread
All sense of reason has gone
I'm simply buried in my fears
No one else can see my problem
Or understand this invisible pain
Because there is no real reason
No cause for feeling this way
Caught in my own illusions
Living without really living
As tears run down my face
And year of life pass me by
I don't really want to live
Nor do I really want to die
Now I'm stuck in this limbo
Made up of my own thoughts
Not knowing what to do
Feeling so empty inside
Listening to my own demos
Not able to see the light
I call out for a moment's peace
A simple chance to catch my breath
I see all the loving people
Knowing not why they're there
They can't be there for me
I know I'm not worthy
But in my heart I know them
And I want to let them all in
But is it right to burden them
To spread my misery and pain
I feel I must carry the load alone
But then one by one they step
Each taking a piece from me
This I do not understand
How did they even find me
But now my family and friends
They have all begun to lift me
Raising up to face the sun
And the life I've forgotten
The warmth it's stirring
Something breaks free
I know it's a long journey
But once again I will be me