Shore LeaveA Story by Le Marquis de Château-RenaultFollowing months at sea the streets and delights of old London are a haven for any sailor on shore leave. But is it excess, insanity or supernatural influences that are at work upon our protagonist?It must have been late. Very late. I only say so because of
the gas lamps. It was that dark that their flickering light barely radiated a
foot away from their suspended thick, glass lanterns. I don’t know what time it was either, nor
when I left. All I knew was that I had been walking for some time, for what
seemed like an eternity, through the dark, dank, salubrious streets of
Shoreditch. As I stumbled on, my mind a whirl of blackened London brick and
cobble, of biting cold and piercing wind, I thought back to the luxuriant
warmth of the inn; the soothing, calming flow of social lubricant, the
comforting greasiness of the oozing pie, the soft heat radiating from
scarcely-hidden, corset-bulging flesh; the nonchalant groping, then the all-out
fondle before a tight, taut thrust, a red rump smack and a puddle of vomit out
the street by the back. This is how it had been most nights since we docked, the
bitter cold of smoky London, appearing welcoming and almost blissful after 18
months in the fetid stench and inescapable heat of the cabin. Plus there was
the drink and of course the women. For many of us, starved of so much during
our time away, it was heaven. My mind returning from the haze of the earlier evening, I
was once again confronted with the darker reality of where I now was. The tiny
alleyways and thoroughfares of warehouses and tenements offering little privacy
to the debauched deeds they were witnessing. I rounded one corner to see a
thickset beast of a man casually leaving the heavy, open, wooden door of a
warehouse, his hands full of new questionably-acquired purchases, and then
another to see a tall, spindly character leaning against a wall whilst, a nubile
redhead fishing for something in his trousers. I rounded one more slightly
faster and tripped on an upended cobble, crashing to the ground with an
almighty slap. My vision whirling, I glanced up at the stars, gleaming and
twinkling in the night sky. So bright they shone, picking out the intricate
detail of the dust clouds of space, shining mauve, and violet and red. But as
my vision focussed, I saw that these were not the heavenly fires, but bright
lights shining high on the cranes of the docks and smoke billowing from the
forest of chimneys that had grown to form a canopy over London. I screwed my eyes shut, persuading them to return to my
control and then, with the aid of the crumbling corner of brick warehouse near
to which I had fallen, stood up unsteadily. My head, my arm, my leg throbbed
with pain and my eyes returned to their state of autonomy. Knowing my lodgings
must now be close, I wandered on, approaching a corner lit by a solitary gas
lamp. It shone like a beacon and I flew to it like a moth, rounding upon the
corner with surprising speed and turning it to be greeted with a dead end in the
street. Down in the darker recesses of the dead end were some doors. I could
only just make out their outline, wide enough for a carriage, but tall enough
only for the shortest man. Above them was a loft hatch and a wooden crane just
outside from which was suspended a precarious pallet of goods. The pallet was
stacked high with hessian covered packages, left out on this cold November
night. And above the pallet, its outline picked out by the non-celestial orbs
in the sky, was a slender and pale naked, female leg. Arching perfectly out of
one of the doors with pointed toes and a bended knee, it pointed skywards
towards the black before bending seductively once again. From tip toe to broad
and full thigh the leg, suspending from the loft hatch like some bizarre puppet,
seized and maintained my undivided attention. I gazed endlessly at the alluring
appendage, watching it bend and straighten for what seemed light decades before
it vanished back into the hatch. I stood for a few seconds gazing at where the
leg had been, its outline etched on my retinas. My mind, green with confusion,
could not follow or find the train of logic that would have explained such an
occurrence. Why was there a leg dangling from a warehouse at this time of
night? All I knew was that there was a leg, and that I wanted to see that leg
again. My gaze dropped to the wide and short carriage doors at street level and
my own legs immediately decided to walk me towards them. I placed my hand on the splintered wood of the left hand
door, its peeling rust-coloured paint coming away in my hand. With the
application of a small amount of pressure the door swung back into the building
with a splintering crash as it hit the wall behind. I was left staring into an
abyss of darkness, but for a small flicker of light at the far end of the room.
It was a long way, maybe a ship’s length, but it beckoned enticingly. And so I walked. As I strode towards the light I suddenly
noticed that I could see nothing around me. No boxes, no pallets, no crates or
sacks and no walls. Just black. And just as I started to wonder what lay beyond
my line of sight, just how many rats were lurking in the background and whether
I should be frightened or not, my head hit something hard. I stopped dead. Feeling around in the dark with my hands I felt what had hit
my head and moving my hands further around, realised that it was in fact the
ceiling. I looked to where the light had been and it was gone. Nothing
surrounded me but black. And so I felt around further, moving quicker as panic started
to set in. As I felt in front of me I felt a solid wall in the direction I had
been walking, in front of where the light had been. I decided to follow the
cold brick with my hands down to the floor, but before I reached the ground the
wall disappeared and the light began to flicker once more in the distance. It
was as though, out of nowhere, a tunnel had appeared in a front of me in a wall
that previously did not exist. Seeing the light again I immediately pressed
forward, crawling on my hands and knees across the dusty, dirty floor. I
crawled for a long distance, my eyes never leaving the light as it got closer
and closer. As I did, my eyes began to make out an outline around the
flame as the light danced off of whatever was holding the flame in place. As I
crawled nearer to the light, I suddenly felt as though I could stand once more
and, without raising my hands to check whether the tunnel had ended, I stood
and continued towards to torch, walking. Squinting into the darkness, my eyes
began to make out the shapely figure of a woman, and I could immediately see
from her perfect proportions and slender build that this woman was the owner
and occupier of the leg I had seen from the loft hatch. As I got closer, I saw
that the woman’s legs were indeed bare, and as I followed her pale outline
upwards I saw that she was completely naked. Above her long legs, was a head of
long, thick and luxuriant brown hair hanging down around her full and pert
breasts. My eyes leading down past her navel, I came to see her hands holding a
flaming torch in front of her genitalia. She stared at me, almost through me.
But as I approached further I came to see that she was not holding a torch, but
rather than her hands were a torch. It was as if a pool of flammable oil had been
poured into her hands and set aflame. But she did not look in pain, nor even
that she was aware that such a flame was emanating from her palms. As I got even nearer, to the point where I could see her
fine, black eyelashes and the delicate lines on her thin but plump lips, she
suddenly looked at me as though I had just appeared in front of her. Her look
of surprise turned to delight as she grinned widely, her profoundly brown eyes
smiling at me. I stopped just in front of her, gazing at her nakedness in front
of me. We stood there for a few minutes, her face a picture of pleasure and
mine delighted confusion. After seconds lost staring at one another, the light of her
torch extinguished itself. I immediately lunged forward to grab hold of her
before she disappeared but it was too late. There was nothing there. I flailed
around in the dark for a few seconds not knowing where I was going or what I
was doing. Panic overloading my mind and churning vomit overloading my stomach,
my heat beat with such an intensity I feared I would pass out. But then,
breathing heavily I stopped. In the utter silence of the warehouse, my breath
sounded heavy and wheezing. For a brief moment there, alone in the dark in the
middle of the city I suddenly remembered how old I had gotten. You could hear,
deep in my lungs, the rattle of old age and the wheezing breath of an ill
man. Then not knowing why, I stood stock
upright. At that moment, a light of an intensity I had never seen
before blasted away the darkness from my left side. It was as though a star had
just exploded within the room although with the light came no warmth. In fact I
immediately felt a slight breeze on my skin across my body. As my eyes became
accustomed to the bright light the figure of the girl started to etch onto my
optical receptors once more. This time she was stood further back, naked still
but for her hands covering her genitalia and staring intently at me. I tried to
intercept her gaze but for some reason could not grab it. It was as though she
was staring past me, through me, below the level of my face. I wondered who or
what it was she might be staring at and glanced behind me to check that no one
else had entered the building. They hadn’t. Behind me, the black of the wall
above the tunnel reigned. I turned back to the girl, yet still she stared. At that moment, I glanced downwards and was shocked at what
I saw. Immediately I realised why the girl was staring. For I too was now
entirely naked, my body completely exposed. At first I felt embarrassed, staring
down and wondering how this had happened. But as I stared longer, I realised
that this was not my body. I was old, yet this body was young, tanned, and
muscular. Below my toned chest led a trail of hair across my stomach down to my
phallus, hanging amongst a virulent tuft of dark black hair. I glanced up and
saw the girl staring down at my appendage, before she finally glanced at my
face. We exchanged a glance for a few seconds as I took in her beauty. Her
naturally full yet thin lips, her long, feminine locks of hair, her round, taut
breasts. As I gazed at her she moved her hands and exposed the small black
triangle of hair between her legs. As I looked at her I saw her eyes suddenly
snap back towards my member as I felt it fill and grow, her eyes bulging. Before I knew it we snapped together. I cannot remember
physically what we did, but I know that it felt good. In a whirl of lights,
knees and backs grazed, blood sucked against skin and clasping we pressed
ourselves into one another before falling apart against the cold, hard, dusty,
dirty floor. I lay there, wheezing for a few moments before closing my eyes and
drifting into a swirling sleep of nothingness. Sometime later, I woke the bright lights of before replaced
once more with the softer flickering of the torch, although this time the torch
hovering above me as if suspended from the invisible ceiling. My mouth was dry
and sickly and I felt entirely dirty. I immediately recalled what had just
happened and shot a glance down across my body. I was still naked, my cold body,
or rather the much younger, toned body I seemed to have acquired, was lying on
the floor and my flaccid member lying against my stomach. As I prepared to
return my gaze upwards, there, from out of the darkness, slithered the girl
like a snake. She slid up in between my legs and laid her head against my inner
thigh to smile at me. Seeing her there, I immediately started to stiffen again
and she saw and moved her head above my phallus. She looked at me and grinned,
grabbing my member with one hand and pressing her lips against it. From then on I cannot remember any more from that evening.
From that moment, all of my senses seem to have shut off as though a switch in
my head was flicked or some fuse deeply wired in my brain, blew and cut all
power. I sat there for some time. I have no idea where there was. Presumably
somewhere in the warehouse. I could never muster the motivation to move and
look for the tunnel back to the street. I just sat there. I don’t know why but
it felt as though I was waiting for something. Something I had been waiting
months for. Something I’d done perhaps? I can’t remember. I could hear someone
nearby, but I had no idea who they were. I could hear their muffled groans and
it sounded as though they are in some pain. I often thought about going and
seeing if they were OK but I was never really that fussed. Besides, it was
quite comforting to hear the sounds of someone else in more pain that I was.
One thing I did know is that I was still naked. I had felt my body with my
hands once, right at the beginning, and could feel that I had yet to find my
clothes from that first night. Hardly surprising in the oppressive darkness of
this place. It was during my time sat on the floor in the dark in the
warehouse that suddenly there was a sound, like a large wooden door, scraping
across the stone floor of the warehouse. I heard the sound of hooves and suddenly could
feel the breath of a horse on my face. Slowly the lights faded in and staring
at me was the long face of an enormous stallion. I froze in fear. Now at this stage I was more than aware that as evenings go,
this was quite an odd one. The warehouse, the woman, the horse. It was not your
average land leave. And it hadn’t been for a while now. What I should probably
explain is that the events that I have just detailed had happened before. In
fact they had happened every night since we arrived in London. All 27 days of
shore leave so far had seen me go through the same thing over and over again.
Never an explanation of the woman, never an explanation of the horse. And never
an explanation of how I get from the warehouse with my snakelike mistress to my
lodgings the next morning. Every morning, I would wake up, fully-clothed and feeling
well-rested after a solid night’s sleep, despite knowing that every evening I
had gone to the same tavern and drunk several tankards of ale. The room was
tidy, the door was locked and there was no hint of any disturbance. What’s more
when I asked the landlady she was adamant that she had not seem me come in at
all after having gone out for supper about six o’clock. In short, the entire
affair was a complete mystery to me. More confusing than any other aspect of this sordid plot
however was precisely how I came to be in that particular tavern every evening.
I couldn’t even remember its name. The only thing that stuck to mind was the
sign on the warehouse opposite that I could see from the window in which I
always sat: “Richard George Fowler & Son”. This particular morning, the morning of my twenty-eight day
in London and of my forty-eighth birthday, I got up from bed and sat at the
rickety wooden table in my room, just across from the bed. Still in my
nightwear, I stuffed my pipe and picked up the matches that had been neatly
left on the side from the evening before. I sat in silence for a few moments,
it might have been longer, and decided to ask myself some questions in order to
get to the bottom of everything. The first question, and one that I couldn’t really answer,
was why I had not done anything about this up until now. Twenty-seven days this
had been going on and yet I had not so much as given it a second thought as to
why it was all going on. That appeared strange to me. The second question, and
probably the most important, was how I was going to solve this problem. This
was more difficult. I sat, staring at the wall where a long list of rules had
been pinned by the landlord. No smoking, no drinking, no illegal items or
contraband on the premises, no prostitutes. Whilst looking at the list I decided that I had to go to the
tavern. Ask the owner some questions. Find out if he had any answers. I changed into my deck clothes and put on my trench coat
before leaving the lodgings with a slam of the door, the fragile wood and glass
of the windows precariously balancing in the crumbling brick and, like me,
shuddering in the biting cold of another freezing November morning. My boots
slipping slightly on the glacial cobbles, I marched out towards where I thought
the tavern and the warehouse would be, purpose in every step. Round crumbling
corners once more, avoiding slumped bodies of the sick and homeless in the
street, their souls perhaps already stolen by this most bitter of winters.
Again, the hours ticked by, and I found nothing. Purpose waning with every
footstep in the now rapidly-falling snow, my pace slowed to a trudge. Past fish
merchants and coopers, blacksmiths and fruiterers I walked until, overcome by
hunger and blinded by the blizzard blowing, I sat on the edge of a frozen water
trough at the side of the street. Gasping for breath, my lungs battling with the howling wind,
I stared with a blurred gaze at the muddy, white snow underneath me, wincing
with each inhalation. I sat for a few minutes before readjusting my gaze to
street level. Across the street a barrow boy hurriedly moved some crates back
inside for shelter, his light, woollen clothing clearly no match for the
plunging temperatures of London at this time of year. As I watched him work my
eyes were caught by the sign above his head. “Richard George Fowler & Son”.
I almost fell from the trough as I span to look at the building behind me. But
as I turned, my feet sliding in the newly-fallen snow, I did not see what I was
expecting to. For in the place of the tavern was a building, built of new
red brick, its walls standing proud amongst the crumbling tenements and
warehouses of Shoreditch around it. It was tall; very tall. My eyes widened as
I followed its silhouette further and further into the sky where it tailed off
with a long, cylindrical chimney, puncturing the low cloud of the dark November
with a tower of black smoke. Where once there stood a small, convivial heart of
the community, there now stood this industrial muscle of a global trading
empire. In seeking answers to questions, I had raised yet more.
Where was the tavern? Where had it gone? Why was this factory here? What was my
involvement in this? The wind blew up and I felt lightheaded and so sat once more
on the trough, suddenly overcome by the confusion of everything I had seen.
Still unsteady, I lowered myself to the floor and rested my head against the
hard stone of the trough for support my eyes snapping closed almost as soon as
I had done so. It was voices that I heard first. Shouting, laughing,
screaming and crying and singing. Then it was the howling of the wind, knocking
at the rattling windows and doors as if begging to be let in. Then it was the
sound of glasses clinking. Then my eyes opened and a blur of red and golden
light burst into my brain, forcing my irises closed as my brain adjusted to
this sensory overload. As my eyes adjusted the interior of the tavern came into
view, the stained, red carpet and dark, stained bar. Then the people. I was propped up in a chair, slightly slumped owing to my
being unconscious, with a blanket draped over me and a pint of frothy ale in
front of me. The hunger and the thirst from earlier instantly rushed back to me
and so before I could help myself I took hold of the tankard with unsteady
hands and tipped the contents into my throat. It had clearly been there for
some time, its warm almost thick consistency catching on my throat as it went
down causing me to splutter. My mind whirling as it struggled to comprehend
everything that went on, it did however take some solace in the fact that here,
in the tavern, it felt comfortable and happy. I sat for a few minutes, taking my surroundings in, before
standing and walking to the bar. The landlord was a tall man, almost crouching
to peer through the heavy, wooden shelves laden with glasses and tankards that
were suspended over the sticky, varnish of the bar below. He wore a crumpled
grey shirt and darker grey corduroy trousers and seemed to wear a permanent
frown in his long face, accented with flecks of grey and white in his
previously dark hair. As I walked over, he glanced up and took me in. He did
not look surprised to see me, nor did he look as though it was of any
consequence to him at all. But as he saw me approach he came closer to the bar
to hear what I had to say. The first question I asked, and I don’t really know why I
estimated this question to be of paramount importance, was the name of the
tavern. The landlord squinted in my direction, as if wondering why on earth I
hadn’t noticed upon coming in before he said in a deep, rumbling but quiet
voice “The Tricorne”. The next question was more difficult to find, but I
eventually spluttered “how did I get here?” The landlord squinted yet further, his
hand dropping the dirty, sodden cloth he carried onto the bar in exasperation.
“You walked in”, came the sarcasm-tinged reply. “Asked me for a pint and then
fell asleep in the corner there”. This was of course not possible. I had passed
out in the street beforehand, that much I was sure of, and so someone must have
brought me here. Grasping at words in my head I struggled to find another
question. I couldn’t or perhaps I wouldn’t. After a slight hesitation I nodded
my appreciation and then slipped away from the bar towards the door. Peering
outside should at least give me some idea as to where the tavern was and what
had happened to the factory I had seen earlier. I opened the door with a creak
and looked out onto the street. The snow was still there, the blizzard almost
unaltered and the warehouse of Richard George Fowler was still across the road.
I wrapped my coat around me and wandered out into the snow-filled street
towards the warehouse opposite. I turned, to where hours before the factory had
been, and saw nothing but the warming lights of the tavern, shining through
dusty, chipped windows. No chimney, no smoke, no factory. Never in my life, even after almost 35 years of being at
sea, had I ever felt so lost. Here I was, on dry land, in the city of my birth,
not 30 minutes’ walk from the very home that my mother lived in, yet I felt as
though I had been left adrift on the ocean to India. I leant against the
warehouse behind me and heard the sound of crumbling brick impacting into the
soft snow below. Tears welling in my eyes, for my mother, for my home, for some
sort of human companionship that I had for so long gone without; tears
streaming down my cheek and freezing on my skin for feeling so lost and so
insignificant in this ever changing world of shifting sands and storehouses. My vision blurred by sorrow, I watched as the bright lights
of the tavern swirled and refracted through the water in my eyes. And through
the swirling mix of light and dark I heard the noise of a door creaking open
and gently closing and a figure appearing from the centre of my vision. I
instantly recognised the figure, winding her way out of the door, although
appearing much more human this time. It was the girl from the 27 nights
previous. Blinking to clear my vision I looked at her. She seemed to be leaving
with purpose as if she was going somewhere. I could only assume to the
warehouse. She was clothed this time of course, in a long, green skirt that
hung down to her ankles and a stone coloured blouse and cardigan, her long
blonde hair flowing halfway down her back. Without thinking, without any premeditation into what I was
going to do, I marched after her down the street, moving over to her side of
the thoroughfare and walking behind her, paying attention to placing my feet in
the footsteps she left behind in the snow. We walked the length of three or
four streets through the maze of Shoreditch. It was then that she saw me
glancing over her shoulder to see who was following her. Immediately her pace
quickened and so I quickened mine. Faster and faster we moved through the
blizzard until, after turning a corner slightly ahead of me, I caught sight of
her running, her long skirt held up in her hands as she went. I ran too,
gaining on her despite her surprising speed. Round four or five more corners we
slipped and slid until I saw that familiar lantern at the end of the street on
the corner. I slowed to a walk, knowing that a dead end lay beyond. Sauntering
through the snow I grinned, knowing that I must be on the verge of getting to
the bottom of this. I turned the corner under the lantern and was immediately
greeting with the wide and low carriage entrance, the left hand door slightly
ajar. Above the doorway was the loft hatch and the crane, although this time no
pallet of goods hung there, only the slightly-frayed rope, blowing wistfully in
the wind. I quickened my pace slightly, not wanting to lose her in the endless
dark. And it was dark. As I entered the warehouse, the light from the lantern
on the corner stayed outside as though scared to come in. I crept through the
blackness listening for the slightest sound of movement, feeling into the
darkness with my hands as I went. Suddenly there was a scuffle. I lunged in its
direction and grabbed hold of a clump of hair I felt moving past me. There was
a scream and I remember striking her to make her silent. I felt bad and
immediately wanted to take her someone safe and lie her down. I remembered the
tunnel and found my way to it, dragging her deadweight behind me and then through
it. At the other end of the tunnel I laid her down in the dark and lit a match
so I could see. The flame provided very little light but I could make out the
wall and so I extinguished the way and felt my way to place her upright against
the cold stone. I lit another match and went to look around the room
further. Contrary to what I had thought the room was not empty. At the far end
were stacked boxes and on top of and around those boxes were a whole host of
strange and exotic items. Ivory from the west coast of Africa, skins and furs
from far flung trading posts and a couple of grotesque, taxidermied giraffe and
wildebeest heads. At that moment there was a loud bang following by the sound
of splintering wood in the distance. My whole body jerked around to where the
noise had come from and I stood, twisted in silence, for any further sound.
There was a pause and then with a crash far greater than that that had come
before, and a flash of light from outside, a carriage door that I had not seen
before on the other side of the room burst open, framing a horse momentarily
before the great beast fell into the room with a terrified whinny and the sound
of scraping horseshoes. I stood in shock before it writhed on the floor for a
few seconds and then got back on its feet unsteadily. Again the horse let out a
frightened screech as foam flecked from its mouth and it galloped at full pace
in a maddened rage further into the warehouse directly towards the unconscious
girl. In a tangle of limbs, hooves, bestial muscle and human flesh the horse
ploughed into the wall and into the girl falling once again to the floor with
the snapping of bones and the tearing of cartilage. I averted my eyes as the
scene unfolded, sensitive only to agonising groan of the semi-conscious girl and
the every growing noise of the horse. At this point, whilst the scuffling in the corner continued,
I crawled back through the tunnel and into the first compartment of the
warehouse entirely in darkness. I cannot explain how but I knew the way
somehow. I paused just inside the ajar open door, looking out into the snowy
street, the blizzard having calmed significantly since I entered. For the first
time since my arrival in this smoky town, the moon peered down upon its
terrestrial neighbour from high, radiating a warming and welcoming light that
shone across the snow in through the door and onto a rickety, wooden staircase
to my right. Without knowing why I walked towards them and then, again without
hesitation, upstairs. The stairs led to a raised ledge at least twelve foot above
ground level from which the loft hatch peered out onto the street below. I
walked over to the hatch, gazing out across the warehouse and tenement roofs
that stretched forever into the distance. Far away further into town, the looming
mass of St. Pauls was almost completely concealed by the smoke that billowed
even through the night from the factories of the East End. Chimneys rose from
almost everywhere. With my eyes I followed what I thought were the roads back
towards the tavern. I double checked the route time and time again but each
time I reached the same place in the distance. There was the sign of Richard
George Fowler’s warehouse, picked up for a single lantern hanging just to its
left. But opposite was no pub or tavern, but a great looming factory, belching
the blackest smoke of any on the horizon. I thought about the past month. About what I had done time
and time again. About the tavern, about the ship I had left, about my lodgings,
about my landlady, about the lantern on the corner of the street, the
carriageway doors, the horse, the snow, the blizzard, the girl. It was the girl at which I stopped. Her transformation from
snake like beauty to lifeless corpse had been caused by me. My hands feeling
suddenly heavy attracted my attention and, raising them into view, I saw that I
no longer had hands but instead a pair of iron-shod hooves, running red with
blood. I glanced once again at the city, I felt a coarse fibre around my throat
and then I fell sharply, stopping after six or so feet. Stopping after 28 days.
Stopping it ever happening again. But still the snow fell as I felt the coarse
rope burning around my reddened flesh soften begin to feel soft, almost like a
quilt. © 2012 Le Marquis de Château-RenaultAuthor's Note
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Added on September 12, 2012 Last Updated on September 12, 2012 Tags: Shore Leave, London, Shoreditch, Ghost, History, supernatural, occult, insanity, psychological, murder AuthorLe Marquis de Château-RenaultLondon, United KingdomAboutWith a love for nineteenth century supernatural and decadent literature I strive to create new tales of logic twisting surrealism influenced by the works of Maupassant, Poe and Théophile Gaulti.. more..Writing
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