Listening Carefully

Monotonic, my heart beats.

Sustained only by the rhythm

Vocalized by these speakers.

I've never been here before, so

I steal confidence from strangers.

Inside the mind of a "regular",

building report with imagination.

Placid, my heart trills

Endured only by hushed nothings

Breathed sweetly from brushed lips 

I've never been here before, so

I pull from the corners 

Until I feel level-headed again

Only to dive in for more.

Fleeting, my heart drums

Grounded only by the muscles

I cling to for substance

I've never felt this before, so

Veiling my vulnerabilities

I push away any haste ideas

Of letting go.

Steady, my heart thrums

Entwined with hesitation

Freedom has found me 

In the most accepting ways.

I've never seen it before, but

I see it when he smiles

And its terrifying.