Candy Pains

Sophomoric melancholy poetry, the only poetry I'm good at.

I'd save you with a dying breath
To resurect a soul with nothing left
There's no point in my melancholy
No point for me to keep giving a damn
But it's all I'd do and I'd kill to lose these voices
Yet they'll never go away
I think I'll let God explain when I see them face to face
This mirror you spread on me for a better chance
Is making this already hellish utopia I live in harder to take
Can't get lost in these victim chances I get so far in.

You play a bitterseet evocative song for self
When you release your burden to death
Hollow words and hollow times is all I find with you
A mesmerising teardrop for the cells that we bled
You let me in spread like a wildfire w***e
And the only money you take from me
Is a price far worse than debt
Each day I cry and each time I miss you
Is another down payment
I put more pennies in the jar
I bled my soul out for you and I'm close to nothing left.

You take and you take and you take just a little bit more
But it's never enough no matter how much I let you have
Cut me open wide then complain about how it's done wrong
There's nothing I can do there's no hope to regenerate
That simple complex feeling I had when I let myself fall for you
You lied a little more to keep me while you needed it
Told me we both felt the same
But baby look back now tell me who really was the liar
In this poker game
Your bluff is better than your truth
I've seen less fiction in lawyers eyes.

Set me on fire watch me turn into ash
And blow away all that's left into an abyss deeper than hell
Laugh at the games you played with your decieving mind
Tell me who's mature the depressed or the liar with masquerade
I love you too much
This is the biggest regret
What the f**k did I do to turn you on my back to?

Find another patsy one more willing to dive into you a second time
Cuz the pleasure may be great
But it's not enough when there is no love
Behind this act turned more machine than romance
Never was one for a guitly pleasure especially one such as this
So spread open once more you wildfire w***e
And let someone else fill that void between your buttery legs
Cuz the only void I would fill is something you'd rather leave closed.