Uncomfortably Numb

I'm mentally and emotionally drained
I've given all of my love
It's been all used up
I don't have the fight in me to carry on
This pain I feel is too strong
I act out impulsively
Kind words repulse me
No matter how much I need it
I just can't feel it
I'm uncomfortably numb
Stupid & dumb
Go live your life, give your love to someone who is capable
Someone who is unbreakable
Why should I torture your beautiful soul
Just because I'm not in control
You deserve more
You shouldn't have to pick me up from the floor
You tried to help me and for that I give you credit
But it will be too late by the time you've read this