Reversed Reality

Some lyrics I found in an archive that I wrote a couple of years back. For some reason they just struck me, how the feelings just never really changed.

I forgot who I was while listening to everyone else
I lose my own way while following someone else
What is a destiny?
What's it got to do with me?
I've been here before,
I recognize this place.
I'm stuck in reverse --
in the outskirts of your grace.
What's the reason for my stay?
I don't really know what's going on.
I'm afraid --
This is not where I want to be.
I'm confused --
I'm stuck in reversed reality.

My sight is veiled by misleading illusions.
My tongue is bound by contradicting confusions.
What is humanity?
How's it affecting me?
I'm tired of people telling me all about who I'm supposed to be.
I'm through with trying to please everyone else
I stumble; I fall; but the ground keeps catching me.
I keep on feeling thee same old feelings
I try to run away
But I just end up facing those same old demons
So once again I turn to you
And Ive got only one thing in mind
save me, please --
I don't want to be left behind.
Get me out of this reversed reality.
Save me from myself
Get me out of this place
I'm stuck in reverse --
I need to feel your grace
What's the reason for my stay?
I don't really care what's going on.
I'm afraid --
this is not where I want to be
I'm confused --
get me out of this reversed reality.