She is My Insomnia

I'm honestly just trying to figure out what to feel after finding out that my ex-boyfriend left me for another woman.

Insomniac.
I can't focus on one of these bundled up thoughts
My mind and my heart are having a frantic conversation
And I don't know who's side I should chose
These bundled up thoughts of mine
Are logical, sensible, emotional, irrational, and terrible.

Closing my eyes I see his so clearly
Each breath reminds me of his warm embrace
Each tear touching my lips, reminds me of his kiss

I wonder if they are happy
I wonder if they are at peace
I wonder if they found everything they were searching for
I wonder if they ever wonder about me

How can you be happy after letting your love walk into the arms of another?
How can I ever find it in my heart to wish them happiness?
How do I know if what they have is truer than us?
How do I learn to let go?

To love is to learn how to keep falling in love
To un-love is letting someone find their happiness on their own
My love will find happiness
I'm sorry I'm hurt in order for him to achieve it

I'm fighting my bitterness
I'm embracing my sorrow
I'm preaching my identity
I'm sorting through these thoughts
Just trying to sleep.

Author's Note

I haven't written in a very long time, ignore the grammar issues, don't mind the unsorted thoughts.