Is Love Hope or Poison

This poem is a true story, of how I caused pain to many people i cared dearly about. But regretting my actions means regretting her, please don't follow my paths in love for pain awaits.

Is love hope or poison?

Why is the beauty of love

why can it house such venom

we as human who seek for it

to feel its sweet warmth

to find it we can be such fools

to find it we can cause such pain

to our self and to others

Is love such a beautiful thing?

I was once a fool

one hopeless in romance

who held his heart in great believe

of the great classic love story

the thought of love at first sight

the thought of a soul mate

the hope deep within so strong

such a young fool I was?

For I did find love

Maybe though it was not perfect

but nothing is in the life is

And I stayed for for years long

we shared great joys at yet

we shared great pains

we thought it would last though

maybe that’s how I lied to myself?

For as the love in my heart

did start to dwindle and fade

foolish I chose to remain

even as I caused such pain

I was blind and did not see

I was a dagger that cut the flesh

I didn’t see I couldn’t know

was it the lie I made I believed?

Soon I went totally astray

from my own foolish beliefs

I feel again in love with a girl

who belonged already to another

He was a true friend

he was such a close ally

he helped me a few times and yet

I always chose to deny but why?

that night set things in motion

one action to another in key point

started this love that should have waited

for if it was true it would have been in time

that was what the foolishness in my heart did sing

that was the time i feel deaf

that love I newly found so sweet

her smile her laugh did sweep me off my feet

Months did pass and I was happy

I left the one i used to love 

to stayed with my forbidden one

though she stayed all along with him

was I right to stay with what I knew

was I so in love with this sin

was foolishness all that held me

that even know I still hold no regret

soon though it all came crashing down

he found out and my old love was informed

me and my new flame we burned so many

caused so much pain for our love to happen

but I knew when this day came

but I knew she would return to him again

but to accept this day I had tried to prepare

for all I wanted for her was to smile again

And soon I found my self alone

trapped in my own dark void 

to suffer for my sins that I will not regret

as long as she is happy with her choice

I could with stand the crushing fate

I could still smile for her happiness

I was the fool who caused in all of this

it was my role to take the suffering with bliss

And yet my phone the message clear

I still love you she said over

she still wants me wants to be with me

WHAT THE HELL!

Is this my true torture

is this how I must now truly suffer 

is she not happy with him

did she make a mistake or is it the lie I want to believe?

I told her to stay away that it was goodbye

to spare more pain that I must fade away

begging me not to disappear

she says I'm worth causing him pain

So I make my offer simple and plain

so I tell her what needs be

so that she can see me she must truly chose

this one last time where her true heart did lye?

So now I wait in this hell

waiting for the answer from her heart

though some how I know i'll be alone

and this slow suffering will end me

but yet I wait for her to show

but yet some how I hold weak hope

but I try to be okay as time goes on

until I wait for judgement day.....

Reviews

[Cynthia]

Ha, a Pretty long for a poem, ha.
Nice poem though, great work.

[Priyankaabhilaashi]

Pretty long..!!

Good one..!!