You'll Never Know Just How Much You Saved Me

You'll never know

just how much you saved me,

when behind those jokes I told

and blatant hit-ons,

I was so bored of my life

that it was crippling me. 

I would laugh and smile with you

and have fun,

suppressing the loneliness that was

killing me from the inside. 

My life was becoming a desert road

with no destination in sight,

nothing remotely exciting along the way.

You'll never know

just how much you saved me. 

"You're not good at expressing emotion"

you told me 

when we first spent time together. 

Not long later

you saw me cry overdue tears. 

And for the first time,

my sadness didn't scare me

and I didn't conceal it 

or repress it.

I acknowledged the deep unhappiness

and  I finally let someone else see it too.