Self Destruction

Every day

I feel myself losing it,

deteriorating on the inside

And now 

It seems glaringly obvious

that I am destroying myself. 

I feel myself unwinding,

falling apart on the inside

but I don't know how to put the pieces 

back together

I don't know where to start

I don't know how to do it

Nothing seems to fit

I wish I could leave the pain behind

even for a short time

so I could get some peace of mind

Leave the world behind

But here I am stuck

Wishing

To scream into an empty room

To break everything in sight

Maybe then

I'd have some kind of release

No matter how short-lived

I feel myself falling deeper

With everything I grab onto

breaking 

away 

from 

me

I'm killing myself

with my own poison