Crash

In a car
Speeding up
Speeding speeding speeding
Until I'm going so fast
I feel myself losing control
I can't slow down
I can't slow my thoughts
I know I've lost it
So I give myself over
Letting it control me
I'm now just here for the ride
And I try to enjoy it
But I can't
In a feeble attempt to regain control
I grab the wheel of my life
Trying to steer it in the right direction
But I only know wrong directions
So I crash
And I feel the pain
It becomes apparent
This pain has always been a part of me
Now just surfacing
Raw and exposed
A wound that will take more
Than a couple of bandages
To heal

Not knowing
If this time
I will survive