The Title Is... Day (2)

earlier i was writing about how i had a decision to make about going to a certain occassion. however, due to some unfortunate accidents it got deleted. i will try to recreate and add to it here:

 

why wont it jus go away. all this stuff! i cant even put it into words. there's a certain occassion today that im not sure if i should go. will it makes things harder for me. what about him. will it hurt us worse. would i be able to handle it. would we be able to take control. i know personally i dont know if i would be able to handle it. and yet i may still go. why? im banking on the slight hope everything will be okay. everything will turn to normal. that this was all a bad dream and ive finally woken up from it. however, its not a bad dream. it is reality. it is what it is. decision time...

 

addition:

i went. i did. how the events played out may better be told in a story..

characters:a girl say her name is anna marie a boy say his name is christopher

 

so on this occassion, a party anna marie's dad's work was hosting, all thee employees are going to be there. christopher is an employee. as she's driving to her destination all these things are going through her head. whats going to happen? will i even see him? what if i start crying? maybe i should jus turn around. but no. she keeps going. ready to face the challenges head on. ready to face the world. she's shaking with terror and fear of what the time might bring. she parks and walks to the party. as she is she notices everybody leaving. she thinks, maybe we'll run into each other? what should i say? should i say anything at all? what if he gets mad? what if..? what if..?" amongst the crowd of people leaving. she sees him. nervousness starts from her head to her feet. she can tell she dint make it in time. he's walking home with his sister. he's jus a few feet away. "should i call to him? should i text him? should i let him go?" she ponders as these questions wizz through her mind....she let him go. she dint say a word. was that the best thing for her to do. i dont know. should she have called to him? run to him? hug him and never let go? but wouldnt that make it worse? wouldnt that make it harder? would that be the right decision? some may never know. she stays at the party and eats all alone. she gets up and leaves and wants to go home. she sits in the garage with no where to go. she sits there and cries at the fact that she let him go. oh well. its all over with now. there's nothing she can do to bring him back now.