Not Just Me In Here

Self Reflection Poem

I don’t feel strong.

I just look strong.

Even though I keep on breaking.

Don’t you worry.

I’ll be fine.

At least I’ll tell you so.

But there's a lot of silence.

There's a lot of frustration.

So much anger and hate.

There is no room for extra.

No room for me to mess it up.

And it’s all my fault

I know that

Even when you try to say it’s not

Or when you’ve forgiven me.

It’s not the same as forgiving myself.

S**t

W***e

B***h

I Take it all

I have nothing to give

That’s the kind of scum you are.

You keep pitying yourself and hiding away

Keep sticking your skin

Keep pushing it away

for just one more hit

There is no righting your wrongs

There wasn’t a way to begin with.

You

Are

Never

Cutting

Deep

Enough

To get me out of your head.
When you talk about it

You just take others

Down with you

Secrets should stay secrets

Don’t you think?

People keep saying you're fine the way you are

Love yourself

How can you?

We both know the real you is sick.

We both know the real you hurts people...

Because you like it.

Why do you have to think about good or bad

Don’t you feel guilty?

Don’t you want to kill yourself?

Oh, there we go.

That's the spot

You're not digging deep enough to kill yourself

You're not strong enough to end it

You're wasting space

wasting time

hurting everyone.

Author's Note

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