My Life Or Yours?

Took 2 weeks. Wrought mostly after fights.

When you are five you do believe life is beautiful

Your hidden from knowledge, from judgment and ridicule
You watch your parents as they laugh and kiss
Those times are the times that youll always miss
Months go by while the stress starts to rise
And you cant rationalize what you see with your eyes
What is going on? You cry but dont understand
Why is your mother in the kitchen with a frying pan
Aiming at your dad as he's mad he grabs a knife
And your mother falls to the ground praying for her life
But its in your dads hands now
The Knife that is, now he decides whether to slaughter the cow
You cant take the tension in your mind, you slowly go blind
At age five you passed out for the first time
Skip ahead a few years, your parents are getting divorced
Theres screaming from both hallways echoing through the court
Soon there done in the court and your father won
Your mom is enraged , your dad grabs your arm and runs
Your mother grabs your leg as its almost through the door
It swings shut on your face and dad calls mom a w***e
Your seven year old face looks like you just bit on a curb
Your bleeding from your nose and mouth,and you talk in bloody words
Your mother kicks your father's shin and shoves you in the van

Your mother hits the gas and runs over a garbage can

A familiar pain pulsates throughout your brain

Something you cant explain then you eyes start to strain

Soon you learn that kidnapping's a crime

At age seven you passed out the second time

Now you are eleven and you have your first crush

Your heart beats fast and slow as your blood starts to rush

You plot for weeks on the right way to ask

She barely notices you, Are you wearing a mask?

But you dont care and you follow your heart

Shes leaving for the bus down the hall you dart

You scream "Savannah!" and she turns around

You open your mouth but dont make a sound

You finally ask for her undivided love

She blushes and says yes you feel like a dove

To bad there is a redneck thats hunting for birds

A week goes by and she utters the words

"I like someone else we are breaking up"

You run home and mix peroxide and coke in a cup

You chug it and feel a pain in your chest

Then your mom walks in you grab the bottle and down the rest

You choke and vomit on the rug and your mom breaks your nose 

You run up stairs and hang yourself with your close

Nobody cares but the ceiling fan snaps

You land on your head and grab the saran wrap

3 layers on your face you vomit and breathe 

It goes up you noes and you start to dry heave 

No air to choke though and something explodes

You have an aneurysm and your brain implodes

You bleed from your nose, you can feel it inside

At age eleven you passed out for the last time

Your fourteen now just out of the loony bin

Your mother decides to go for a spin

She drags you to the back off a country corn field

She shouts "I care about your feeling now how does this feel?"

She hits you over the head with an empty bourbon bottle

And beats you down until you cant wattle

But youve bled before and youve delt with the pain

She cant f**k with you anymore your already insane

Blood rushes from your nose,ears and mouth

You smile at the devil