Confessions Of a Guilty Heart

My realisations...

 

Tonight I took a step back in the recovery of my heart
I thought it was easier, but it’d never been so hard
Tonight all I wanted was to break down and cry
For my heart I know is breaking inside…

I look back at our summer together
And see how easily I could have made things better
I wish that he was here to listen
To my heart’s guilty confession…

The blame I know is owed to me
There’s no sorrier I could be
I pushed him pass the very edge
And wished that leaving me wasn’t his revenge…

The times I pushed and kicked him down
The nights I cried to have him around
The days we spent spitting words of fury
The way I acted when he’d get teary…

It hurts now to look back in time
And see the fault was namely mine
His insecurities laid deep within
I could have just comfort him…

I regret the times I left him to cry
To work it out without me by his side
I was blinded by my own selfish feelings
Instead of helping him in healing…

I should have spent more time with him
Instead of running off to play with friends
And I’ll never let go the pain I caused
Why didn’t I just stay with him and lock the doors…

I wish that I could turn back time
I’d go back and ensure he’d be mine
I’d change the way in which I acted
And hold him close and reassure him…

So tonight I lie alone in bed
With thoughts of him running through my head
And as the tears pour down my face
I’m wishing for his warm embrace…

Reviews

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Such sorrow in your words... hindsight is twenty twenty and often when love fails we look back and realize things we should have done...

I regret the times I left him to cry
To work it out without me by his side
I was blinded by my own selfish feelings
Instead of helping him in healing�

this stanza really got to me cause i always believe two people need to work together in times of crisis, in the end it will bring you closer together... as the saying goes united we stand divided we fall...
A very deep and meaningful write.

[Kitty]

Wow... it sounds like you we're married. I don't mean that in a funny way, I know what this poem means, and it almost seems like it something I wrote, said... or thought.

Very true words in this piece. You are a feelings type of writer. Just like me.

Write on,

Melba

[Samantha Ashley*]

I like this writing a lot, and it made me think back to this certain guy in high school that I was just crazy about! I really liked the guy also, and just broke my heart but I did find someone new. I'm not sure how your relationship status is but I never thought that I would find anyone else. I always thought to myself about that saying, Their's a lot of fish in the sea. well something like that lol. Yea I felt your pain while reading it and I like to experience that while reading anything, so good job!