I Know What I Am

This is a poem I wrote for my OC. (my art used for picture) NOt to be taken too seriously and definitley not about me.

Generally, I'm a horrible person,
With a heart as cold as ice.
And if you asked me to off a man,
Well, I wouldn't think twice. 

I laugh when people bleed,
And chuckle when they cry.
I get off on moans of pain,
And I'm joyful when they die.

How many mothers can say,
They tried to kill their own son?
Instead of facing feelings inside,
I take my heart and run.

And during all of this time,
I'm very self-aware,
Of every single emotion,
And exactly why it's there. 

But it's hard to be a fountain,
When you're trying to be a wall.
It's hard to be so little,
When you're trying to be so tall. 

I don't believe in happy endings.
All of it's jibber-jabber talk.
I don't believe in real smiles.
All teeth point and they mock.

I'm an exhibit to the regular,
Something insane and strange.
A disease that can't be cured;
An attitude that can't be changed. 

So why should I pretend to be,
A woman I am not?
The girl so spoken of;
A creature so highly sought.

She doesn't exist in me.
She died when I was born.
All that's left in this book,
Are the pages that are torn.

So take the evil or leave it.
We all know I'm not pure white,
But I can be a little good,
If you hold the angle just right .

Reviews

[Kitty]

We all try to be someone we're not. That way, no one will ever know us and therefore no one will ever truly hurt us. It's not only a defense but a way to feel better about ourselves. Most of us aren't comfortable with the people we are, and it's really no hyperbole when I say 'we all'

I found the rhythm ok. And theres something i love about the rhyming scheme whether you consciously did it or not. It's of course ABCB but not always. Im referring to the third to last stanza. Not and sought dont rhyme (for me). And that speaks volumes. It's as if you sort of take off your mask fully - doing away with the pretense you employ around others to please them - and this supports what that particular stanza said. It amazes me that form can be used so well sometimes. Thank you for reminding me of that fact.

Pleasure reading (even if a tad cliché - which only adds to said pretense),
Kittyboy666