drowning beside myself

i was in HS when i wrote this so its a lil idk...eh.

 

Its getting harder to breathe without you here and even when u are,
I feel like im drowning, I know how to swim and im tired of fighting..
I cant live my life like an ocean, why cant I be more like you..
The current is too strong and im losing, im struggling..
Its too deep and I cant fight my way to the top..
Is there someone out there who can save me, help me to breathe to not drown..
My lungs are filling up with water, my arms hanging limp in the water iv given up, I quit..
Im cold and my lips are blue, I see the sun shine through the water, hopelessly beautiful..
When will i be shown the answer to my life, or am i to live life confused and scared..
Im scared to go through this alone, im scared to live my life alone and unknowing..
To live in this uncertain world, to fight for every breath, to know that every minute of everyday is going to be a challenge and I have no one to help me through it..
Is this hopeless life suppose to be what im fighting for?
Is this the only thing I have to look forward to when I wake up in the morning?
How do you prove the sky is going to be blue the next morning?
Or that the ocean is going to have waves or be still?
How are you going to save me from my myself?

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[Meredith Leigh]

You have a very strong sense of how to convey exactly what you are feeling into words. It's wonderful!

- Kriss