The List of Things I Hate

List of Stuff I Hate

1. I'm not over Chanse yet.
2. I caused my ex some pain.
3. In 1 subject, my average is a 70.
4. All my very best friends are graduating.
5. I don't get to meet my birthparents until I'm 18.
6. This is hard because I know have blood related siblings.
7. I'm afraid of my current parents.
8. I don't trust my current mom.
9. I'm short.
10. I'm ugly.
11. I'm fat.
12. I get bullied.
13. A lot of people hate me.
14. I'm not talented at all.
15. I'm scared of the dark.
16. I have OCD.
17. I have no motivation or inspiration.
18. I'm depressed.
19. I feel unloved.
20. I feel forgotten.
21. I wish I were dead.
22. Nobody cares.
23. I cry at least once a day.
24. My grandpa has Alzheimers.
25. He doesn't know who I am anymore.
26. He is slowly dying.
27. He was once my best friend, but he doesn't remember.
28. He was the only one who listened.
29. He is the only one I would feel comfortable telling this to.
30. I tried to kill myself once.
31. I tell so many lies.
32. I can't tell my parents because they would never understand.

Author's Note

i guess you all are right. I am no longer the happy girl I used to be. And my writing style definitely has changed a bit..

Reviews

[Not here]

if your not the happy girl you used to be and your writing style has changed, you are still one of the best writers i have ever read. and your still one of my besties. itll be ok we are all here for you

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, David. You're the best! I've just been a bit depressed lately..

[Not here]

its okay. we all have moments/times like that

[MJ]

Hope this helps:

Frost tears at the edges of your rose petal heart, hell’s icy fingers demanding tribute.
Can you recall the flame of light? Of being truly understood? Just for who you are?
Yes, there’s the taste of warmth, of familiarity. An old understanding.
But understand this: the seasons of life decide for us, and the way you let them paint your soul is a choice.
So choose wisely.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks :) :)

[Marcel Grant]

If anything, wait just a little, take a deep breath and wait till the break up with that Chanse guy goes away. Then write a list of things you love instead :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! :) I was just feeling a bit down yesterday..

[Marcel Grant]

It happens to everyone man!

[Lizardo]

I disagree with everything, end of the story

[Cool Girl]

It helped me to move on.:

[Lizardo]

Okay then, its good :)

[Leslie Flemons]

I may not know you, but I bet that you are a very beautiful person and pretty cool. Please don't say stuff like that about yourself. You are worth more than you think you are.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! I was just feeling down the other day..

[closed]

completely disagree with 10, 11, 13, 14, and 22

you're a tortured artist, just like most of us

sometimes one of the most difficult things is to accept our lives
or ourselves for the way we are

the good thing is that none of this has to decide our fate...

because we all have flaws that we're trying to change
and nothing is ever black or white

but shades of gray

the trick is to find happiness in the good things
and not dwell on the negative in our lives

because every second is a chance to turn everything around...

out run it all...

and be better than you were yesterday


-your truest friend from the beginning



-Dream

[Cool Girl]

Thanks.. I guess you're right about living and looking at the positive things..

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Look...i'm not exactly jumpin around because of happines either. But i do care about you, i do love you very much. And you are talented, you are NOT ugly, you are a lovely person. One of the things that kept me alive the past weeks, was that i could talk to you. So please don't hate yourself.

[Cool Girl]

okay...... Thank you

[Dani The Unreviewed]

You are ALWAYS welcome :)

[ANTO]

Well at least two people havent blocked you CG. xD

None of us are perfect. We ALL need work.
More power to your pen.
:))

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, Anto :)

[ANTO]

:)........

[....................]

Now you have them written down, there are many you can work on... there is sadness, anger and lots of honesty in this write but above all there is a whisper of wanting help... such depth of emotions at such a tender age... I wish all the best for you CG!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you :) you seem to understand the emotion I put into it..