I'm Sorry

An apology to one of my dearest friends..

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you didn't say goodbye?

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you never said that you were leaving?

Cuz I remember 3 months ago,
Missing you everyday.

And now,
You're back,
Today.

I thought that you were never coming back.

I thought that you were gone forever.

So when you messaged me again,
I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I smiled wide and laughed to myself,
For you've always been one of my best friends.

And I knew that we'd be there for each other,
We'd be there until the end.

But so much had changed in 3 months time,
New people and emotions.

I didn't know what to expect,
And I don't think you did either.

We tried starting where we had left off,
But it was just....different.

Your feelings changed,
But mine stayed the same.

Did I toy with your emotions?
Did I cause you inside pain?
Is there any way I hurt you?
I need you to tell me.

And I'm truly truly sorry,
See, these words I write are truth.
Please forgive me, my best friend,
Because I need you.

Did I make you feel embarrassed?
Did I cause your heart to break?
Is there any way to help you?
I need to know today.


And I really just had nothing to say.
The fact that you were there,
Took my breath away.

And I really didn't know what to do.
The fact that you were there,
Made me stare at you.

But now it seems I ruined the day,
Just like I do with everything else.

I guess that you could call me clumsy,
Not just physically, but emotionally too.

If only you had told me sooner..
Maybe I could've prevented this.

It's not your fault, it's mine,
And I'm not proud of it.

I just feel terrible,
I think I might just cry.

I swear that this is truth,
To you I cannot lie.

Can you just talk to me,
And stop ignoring my apologies?

I need your forgiveness,
I need to know you're okay.

You ask me why I care?
Well, it's because you're like a brother.
You're like the brother that I never had.

And I don't want that to change,
You're my mega bff!

Don't you need me too?
Can't you see I'm sad?

I'm sorry for this poem,
It's not my best at all.

But I'm having trouble forming words
To just describe this all.

And if you won't forgive me,
Then I must say one thing.

I thank you for the friendship,
The friendship that I always need.

Your friendship is important,
I treasure it so much.

So please, oh please forgive me,
It's all I need and want.

Author's Note

I just hope he forgives me...

New information: He has forgiven me, but I still would like to share this poem with all of you. It has so much emotion, and I think people will enjoy it :)

Reviews

[DoormanDan]

CG, I have to say that this is easily your most emotional and most relatable piece yet. You say that it is not your best, but in a way, it actually is, just because of the raw emotion behind every single last word. Usually when there are poems this long, they lose my interest(AGH ADHD!), but just the emotions charging this poem kept me reading the entire thing! I don't know who it is that you're apologizing to, but just know that regardless of who you are, you're always going to do something wrong at some point in life. I know that those moments can make you feel like the worst person in the world, but they don't mean that you are. No, they just mean that you are HUMAN, and by acknowledging that you were wrong, you are proving just how good(and how strong) of a person you really are. For you to be so young and still be able to admit when you're at fault means that you are pretty mature for your age. This is a great poem, and I'm glad to hear that the person has accepted your apology. :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! Yes, it is very long..lol
But I appreciate you reading it all! That means so much to me :)

[DoormanDan]

You are very welcome CG! :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Hey. Just got your read request... is there something wrong? Your my best friend:) :) :) :) :) :) and nothing will change that.

[Cool Girl]

Nope nothing wrong..
This is an apology to one of my other best friends lol

I just really liked the poem and wanted to hear your feedback

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Well, its very well written! I love it, its another amazing piece of your work. Keep writing!

[Cool Girl]

Haha thank you! You're always nice :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

What are friends for? :) And its true, your work is always amazing :-D

[ANTO]

I can hardly remember 3 days ago CG. So dont be sorry. We are BFFs for ever - Im sorry for ignoring your messages - HEYYYY IM JOKING !!!!

I know this is a sweet writing to your bff, who is also a friend to all here, like you.
Bless you all - you WC youngsters !! lol.

[Cool Girl]

Lol thank you, ANTO! I always enjoy reading your reviews!

So, if im an WC youngster, than does that make you a WC oldie? Lol jk jk

[ANTO]

You know - as soon as I had written that phrase WC youngsters that very thought struck me - "am i saying Im an oldie then?" - and I said to myself, ah sure leave it in - sometimes Im the biggest kid on the whole WC - 46 going on 13 sometimes lol.
xD

[Cool Girl]

Lol well, I enjoy your humor :)
It makes me smile!

[Cool Girl]

Lol well, I enjoy your humor :)
It makes me smile!

[ANTO]

you too - you too :))

[Cool Girl]

Thank you! :)

[Jamestown]

This is a fantastic piece of work, people make mistakes and we need to
acknowledge them and ask for forgiveness and hopefully move forward
in an attempt to even become stronger, you look to be doing
just that:) well written and executed, thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much, Jamestown! You are absolutely correct :)

[Lizardo]

Indeed, a lot has changed but I haven't.
But remember three months ago I wasn't studying, like really studying so I was here the whole time, until I saw my grades and I was like: Time to wake up.
You don't have to say I'm sorry when you haven't done nothing wrong my dear friend, its a waste of energy saying sorry for something you haven't done.
I like the poem, yet it is sad and moved my heart, I feel the emotion around it. Can't say goodbye at night because I usually fall sleep from all the days I've been studying from 2 PM to 2 AM.
but if you want to, I forgive you from nothing you haven't done. You're one of my best friends in the whole wide world and happy birthday :) God bless you and I'll see if I can be around today more :)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much, Lizardo. You have no idea how much that means to me :)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much, Lizardo. You have no idea how much that means to me :)

[Lizardo]

and for me your happiness :)

[steven]

im not mad cool girl, i fell asleep. i am not mad, i would never be mad at you :)

[steven]

your my mega friend, i just didnt respond cause i fell asleep!

[steven]

goodness, look what ive done, i am so sorry for making it seem like i was mad at you.

[Cool Girl]

I'm sorry too...
I panic sometimes lol

But I forgive you :)

[steven]

lol made a poem about you because i felt so bad

[Cool Girl]

Really? thats so sweet.. I'll read it's now!

[steven]

and yes, i do need you too

[Cool Girl]

You're so nice :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Its very sad, and touching. If it means anything, then I'm here for you, and I'm sure, that there are many others too. Its well done, letting it all out through a poem. I hope that he'll forgive you. Try to cheer up, its your birthday:)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you :) turns out he wasn't made at me, but thanks anyway! You're a great friend!

[Dani The Unreviewed]

You are welcome. I'm glad you two are not mad at each other. Yay:)

[Cool Girl]

I'm glad too! He's a close friend :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Well, I wish you all the best:)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! You too :)