I'm Sorry

An apology to one of my dearest friends..

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you didn't say goodbye?

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you never said that you were leaving?

Cuz I remember 3 months ago,
Missing you everyday.

And now,
You're back,
Today.

I thought that you were never coming back.

I thought that you were gone forever.

So when you messaged me again,
I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I smiled wide and laughed to myself,
For you've always been one of my best friends.

And I knew that we'd be there for each other,
We'd be there until the end.

But so much had changed in 3 months time,
New people and emotions.

I didn't know what to expect,
And I don't think you did either.

We tried starting where we had left off,
But it was just....different.

Your feelings changed,
But mine stayed the same.

Did I toy with your emotions?
Did I cause you inside pain?
Is there any way I hurt you?
I need you to tell me.

And I'm truly truly sorry,
See, these words I write are truth.
Please forgive me, my best friend,
Because I need you.

Did I make you feel embarrassed?
Did I cause your heart to break?
Is there any way to help you?
I need to know today.


And I really just had nothing to say.
The fact that you were there,
Took my breath away.

And I really didn't know what to do.
The fact that you were there,
Made me stare at you.

But now it seems I ruined the day,
Just like I do with everything else.

I guess that you could call me clumsy,
Not just physically, but emotionally too.

If only you had told me sooner..
Maybe I could've prevented this.

It's not your fault, it's mine,
And I'm not proud of it.

I just feel terrible,
I think I might just cry.

I swear that this is truth,
To you I cannot lie.

Can you just talk to me,
And stop ignoring my apologies?

I need your forgiveness,
I need to know you're okay.

You ask me why I care?
Well, it's because you're like a brother.
You're like the brother that I never had.

And I don't want that to change,
You're my mega bff!

Don't you need me too?
Can't you see I'm sad?

I'm sorry for this poem,
It's not my best at all.

But I'm having trouble forming words
To just describe this all.

And if you won't forgive me,
Then I must say one thing.

I thank you for the friendship,
The friendship that I always need.

Your friendship is important,
I treasure it so much.

So please, oh please forgive me,
It's all I need and want.

Author's Note

I just hope he forgives me...

New information: He has forgiven me, but I still would like to share this poem with all of you. It has so much emotion, and I think people will enjoy it :)

Reviews

[DoormanDan]

CG, I have to say that this is easily your most emotional and most relatable piece yet. You say that it is not your best, but in a way, it actually is, just because of the raw emotion behind every single last word. Usually when there are poems this long, they lose my interest(AGH ADHD!), but just the emotions charging this poem kept me reading the entire thing! I don't know who it is that you're apologizing to, but just know that regardless of who you are, you're always going to do something wrong at some point in life. I know that those moments can make you feel like the worst person in the world, but they don't mean that you are. No, they just mean that you are HUMAN, and by acknowledging that you were wrong, you are proving just how good(and how strong) of a person you really are. For you to be so young and still be able to admit when you're at fault means that you are pretty mature for your age. This is a great poem, and I'm glad to hear that the person has accepted your apology. :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! Yes, it is very long..lol
But I appreciate you reading it all! That means so much to me :)

[DoormanDan]

You are very welcome CG! :)

[Emily]

I really like the story it tells!
Well done!

[Cool Girl]

thanks!! :)

[Matching Socks]

So heartfelt Cool Girl. You have a lovely heart that shines. It will be as it should be.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, Ana! You're so kind :)

[sereenaoutloud]

Friends - our family that we get to choose! Glad he forgave you and great write !

[Cool Girl]

I love my friends! They are indeed like family :)

[dan]

Well, I read his and I read yours, and I'm glad you found some common ground and reunite like best friends should. After a blowup happens between friends it's easy for EACH to think, "I screwed this up, just like I do with everything else..." because when a friendship is fractured nothing else SEEMS right, and if that thinking happens then you are trying to blame yourself for everything. So I hope you don't think that way and I hope the sailing is smooth from here. I'm happy for both of you. take care...dan

[Cool Girl]

Thank you, Dan! I hope so too :)

[Nadia Gerassimenko]

A very earnest poem and very sincere feelings. I am glad he forgave you. A gap in time does change people, convictions, and feelings. But maybe you can reinvent your friendship and hopefully it will become a stronger bond.

[Cool Girl]

I sure hope so :)

[Elie Marie]

this is good and sounds very familiar. Good luck with it all... it's a rough situation to be in. Humans, always unexpected.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks :)

[Valentine]

Live is pain mixed with sorow. We all make mistakes and have to say sorry. That just is life. Valentine

[Cool Girl]

That is so true.. Thanks, Valentine!

[Not here]

wow this was really great, and i read the one he wrote too and it was awesome :) you two are sweet

[Cool Girl]

Yes, he's like a brother to me lol :)

[Kurai.Merodi]

Its so real and it relates to a lot of people. I'm glad you guys are made up ^.^ Because friendships should last forever and you sound like you have a strong one.

[Cool Girl]

You're right! Thanks so much :)

[Haeshin]

Worry and a need for forgiveness are the messages I'm getting very clearly from this poem.

[Cool Girl]

I'm glad because that was the message I was trying to give! Thank you :)