I'm Sorry

An apology to one of my dearest friends..

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you didn't say goodbye?

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you never said that you were leaving?

Cuz I remember 3 months ago,
Missing you everyday.

And now,
You're back,
Today.

I thought that you were never coming back.

I thought that you were gone forever.

So when you messaged me again,
I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I smiled wide and laughed to myself,
For you've always been one of my best friends.

And I knew that we'd be there for each other,
We'd be there until the end.

But so much had changed in 3 months time,
New people and emotions.

I didn't know what to expect,
And I don't think you did either.

We tried starting where we had left off,
But it was just....different.

Your feelings changed,
But mine stayed the same.

Did I toy with your emotions?
Did I cause you inside pain?
Is there any way I hurt you?
I need you to tell me.

And I'm truly truly sorry,
See, these words I write are truth.
Please forgive me, my best friend,
Because I need you.

Did I make you feel embarrassed?
Did I cause your heart to break?
Is there any way to help you?
I need to know today.


And I really just had nothing to say.
The fact that you were there,
Took my breath away.

And I really didn't know what to do.
The fact that you were there,
Made me stare at you.

But now it seems I ruined the day,
Just like I do with everything else.

I guess that you could call me clumsy,
Not just physically, but emotionally too.

If only you had told me sooner..
Maybe I could've prevented this.

It's not your fault, it's mine,
And I'm not proud of it.

I just feel terrible,
I think I might just cry.

I swear that this is truth,
To you I cannot lie.

Can you just talk to me,
And stop ignoring my apologies?

I need your forgiveness,
I need to know you're okay.

You ask me why I care?
Well, it's because you're like a brother.
You're like the brother that I never had.

And I don't want that to change,
You're my mega bff!

Don't you need me too?
Can't you see I'm sad?

I'm sorry for this poem,
It's not my best at all.

But I'm having trouble forming words
To just describe this all.

And if you won't forgive me,
Then I must say one thing.

I thank you for the friendship,
The friendship that I always need.

Your friendship is important,
I treasure it so much.

So please, oh please forgive me,
It's all I need and want.

Author's Note

I just hope he forgives me...

New information: He has forgiven me, but I still would like to share this poem with all of you. It has so much emotion, and I think people will enjoy it :)

Reviews

[DoormanDan]

CG, I have to say that this is easily your most emotional and most relatable piece yet. You say that it is not your best, but in a way, it actually is, just because of the raw emotion behind every single last word. Usually when there are poems this long, they lose my interest(AGH ADHD!), but just the emotions charging this poem kept me reading the entire thing! I don't know who it is that you're apologizing to, but just know that regardless of who you are, you're always going to do something wrong at some point in life. I know that those moments can make you feel like the worst person in the world, but they don't mean that you are. No, they just mean that you are HUMAN, and by acknowledging that you were wrong, you are proving just how good(and how strong) of a person you really are. For you to be so young and still be able to admit when you're at fault means that you are pretty mature for your age. This is a great poem, and I'm glad to hear that the person has accepted your apology. :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! Yes, it is very long..lol
But I appreciate you reading it all! That means so much to me :)

[DoormanDan]

You are very welcome CG! :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Great job sis! I really relate to this poem, as this has sort of happened to me recently. Well, you know the story!
Anyways great emotions. Fantastic as usual!

[Cool Girl]

Aww thanks, sis! I've missed you lately.. Tell Tessa that i said hi!! :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

I've missed you, too! I'm sure you guys will run across each other. I'm pretty sure she is online.

[Cool Girl]

Yep! We talked today :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Awesome!!!

[Cool Girl]

You haven't sent me any messages lately! How are you?

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Been super busy with school. I'm finishing up my second week today! I didn't anticipate how hectic college would be! I do need your help, I need a name for my book. I'm putting my poetry together..

[Cool Girl]

okay! What's the theme of most of your poems?

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Well, it's going to be a compilation of most of my pieces on here. So there are happy ones, sad ones, love ones. you name it, I have it!

[stars are far]

I can see how much emotions you pure into this and how much honesty there is within your words, i can feel how much you are regretting that, and I know why he forgave you, because those emotions are real and this love for you "mega bff" is real, and i loved that term "Mega bff" it made me remember one guy friend i have and we had a fight, well its because of me (ofcourse, we girls always ruin things up, dont you agree ?) so yeah, but he forgave me and so what is why i feel your words and that happiness in the smile you wrote in the author's note hehe..
wish you all the best dear :)

[Cool Girl]

Haha yes, girls do tend to do that ;)

Thank you so much!

[stars are far]

always my pleasure dear :)

[Saddam]

Wishing you a good luck for ahead.
Lovely read.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks!!!!

[RoyRogers]

This is very sad. Nice piece

[RoyRogers]

This is very sad. Nice piece

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, Roy!

[~]

yay cutie I am soo happy for you! your feelings definitely went through. :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, moonskittles! Im happy too :)

[Pushkar Prabhat]

awww......so sweet honest and innocent.......sincere and heartfelt!!
it is great news that he has forgiven you!!! Cheers!!!
beautiful writing....
i loved it!!!
:)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much! Im glad you liked it :)

[Pushkar Prabhat]

you are welcome.......!!! :) :)

[andrew mitchell]

A lovely tale and a pleasure to read:)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you!